wheeeeee yay new blog. okay i spent alot of time this morning making this thing look fancy. let me know what you think.

xox,

<3 Jen

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my mom is making sausage for dinner and its gross annd i hate it. =(

im thinking i might go for a walk. it is b-e-a-utiful outside.

<3<3<3

omgomgomgomgogmgomg.

k i duno. today we went to church and then hiking and then shopping.

that is all. now pictures from today:

<3<3 k now i am tired. i have pictures from yesterday too but ehh ill post them tomorrow. i love you all!

omg new swimsuit!

omg new shoes!!

..okay these are just pictures








omg a little hamster!


<3<3<3<#<33<3<3<3<333<3<3<3<3<3<3!!
the end =)

It's yet to be determined
but the air is thick
and my hope is feeling worn
i'm missing home
and i'm glad you're not a part of this
there's parts of me that will be missed

and the phone is always dead to me
so I can't tell you
the tempurature is dropping
and it feels like

it's colder than it oughta be in march
and i've still got a day or two ahead of me
till i'll be heading home
into your arms, again
and the people here are asking after you
it doesn't make it easier
it doesn't make it easier to be away

I'd like to hire a plane
and see you in the morning
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again
coming home again
coming home again
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again

well, it's warmer where you're waiting
it feels more like july
there's pillows in their cases
and one of those is mine
and you wrote the words, "I love you"
and sprayed it with perfume
it's better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room
it's warmer where you're waiting
it feels more like july
it feels more like july

and it's yet to be determined
but the air is thick
and my hope is feeling worn
I'm missing home
and i'm glad you're not a part of this
there's parts of me that will be missed

and the phone is always dead to me
so I can't tell you the tempurature is dropping
and it feels like
it's colder than it oughta be in march
and i've still got a day or two ahead of me
till i'll be heading home
into your arms, again
and the people here are asking after you
it doesn't make it easier
it doesn't make it easier to be away

I'd like to hire a plane
and see you in the morning
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again
i'm coming home again
i'm coming home again
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again

<3

..YOUR FACE!!

HAHAHHAHAHAH

suggested tag for today: "men should not wear speedos"

HAHHAHAHHAHAHAH

<333

so i was watching tv and my sister and i were fighting over the remote, like literally fighting for it. and when she tried to pry it from my hands the broke off my nail and i cried for 45 minutes.

the end

<3

<3<3 brought to you by..ME! mwahahah! but seriously, think about it..

• last night i chewed/pulled off all my nails
• i like apples with peanut butter
• haha so my mom and i had to have a 'talk' because last month i sent/recieved $7.60 worth of text messages. she said i have to pay her back. but i think its funny.
• im about to go take a shower fo rizzle
• it is gorgeous outside
• yes it is
• and i like it
• and my window is open
• and i love windows
• and emily.
• she is so supafly
• and i am going to seeee her this summer and we will road trip biatch!!
• boys love me
• i have way more friends that are boys than girls
• i dont know why
• my mom is telling me to get off the computer and clean my room.
• so i am getting off the computer..
• and taking a shower.
• and listening to weezer
• <33333333

i have some things i would like to get out of my system..

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..whew

so today my sister and i went shopping at wal mart. and we were gonna go to the outlet mall, but aparently there is contruction on the interstate and my dad is stupid and thinks i will get killed if i drive in construction. *grumbles* so i got some freaking amazing chapstick. and some nail polish, and also a bracelet to benefit breast cancer awareness. hilary from work showed me hers like forever ago and i went before and looked for them but couldnt find them. but todayyy i did! yay me!

and that is all i have to say about that.

and just so you know, i curled my hair and its hot.

<3<3<3 xox

ps: i punched my dad in the face today. =/

ok so. i figured out why my house smells like olives. our self cleaning oven is well.. self cleaning. and aparently when it does this, it gives off a very strong olive smell.

there is this song that i love. by a band called ben folds five. the song is called brick and its awesome. go listen to it now. and also. listen to a song called more than words by the band extreme. i am in a 90s mood. so what.

Yesterday i went shopping with my mom and my sisters and i got some bracelets for liz. im going to mail them to her, but theres something else i wanna get for her too. so im waiting til i can get it. then i will mail it to her. and i need to call her. cuz she said, 'ill call you on saturday' and i was like 'okay, liz' but i knew she probably wouldnt call. and i was right, like always. so now im gonna call and give her a hard time.

In other news, emily got verizon so now we can talk for freeeeeee!! mwahahaha its great. i love talking for free. of course its the weekend now so all my calls are pretty much free. but you know.

so last night trev was on online and i IMed him all like 'hey lover' and he says nothing but i wasnt really worried about it. and im talking to him right now and he told me that it was his mom on his screename last night. and i was like.. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! ahh okay i just find humor in my own stupidity. yes i do.

anyways, the weather is beautiful. and church was awesome today. and i love everyone.

my mom wants me to get a job working at this convention center/banquet hall thingy or something. and im all like ehhh but ill probably fill out the application just so she will stop talking about it.

okayokay im out of news. <3 <3 lovelovelove!

hahahhaha so pretty much my best friend hit the nail on the head. Emily filled this out about me, pretty much every answer is exactly right. i just find it funny. we can read each others minds yesyes.

1. My name:  Jennifer Anne

2. Where did we meet?:  girl scout meeting

3. Take a stab at my middle name:  I already did, so yeah!

4. How long have you known me?:  almost forever, but really 11 yrs

5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:  i think alot

7. What's my favorite color?: pink sparkle

8. When you first saw me what was your first impression?  what a weirdo

9. My age?: 16 but 17 in about 3 wks!

10. My birthday?:  gosh i keep predicting the answers, i must be pyschic.. may 4th

11. Color Hair?:  brownish

12. Color eyes?: hazelish? idk what to call them, they are your eyes

14. Have you ever been jealous of me?  i have known u for 11 yrs, so prolly at one point

15. What's one of my favorite things to do indoors?:  sleep lol

16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?  no, you were a mute

17. What's my favorite type of music?:  u dont have one favorite type..u like mulitiple kinds, not country though

18. What's one of my favorite things to do outdoors?:  puddle jump

19. Am I shy or outgoing?  inbetween

20. Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?:  HAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA (im stephen holman)

21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:  you's a rebel wit-out a causeeeee

22. Would you consider me a friend?:  heck yes i would

23. Would you call me preppy, slutty, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, snobby, or something else?:  something else

24. Have you ever seen me cry?:  yes

25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?  meow, but i alreayd call u that

28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me? yes, but u would prolly ask me first

AM I. ?!?!?!?

30. Quiet or loud?  both

31. Short or Tall: both...short if ur next to like a mountain or something, tall if ur next to ian

32. Weird or original:  both

33. Smart or stupid?  smart

34. Boring or Fun?  fun!

35. Attractive or Unattractive?  haha veryyy attractive...oo lala

DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)

36.A psycho?  of course!

38. Athletic?  eh, not so much anymore

39. A nerd?  haha u nerd


JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS

47. What do you think Ill be when I grow up?  a baby

48. A) Do you think Ill get married?  yesh

B) If you  do you think Ill marry?  noah

49. Who do I have a crush on?  noah and alex

50. Who is my best friend?  me!

51. What song (if any) reminds you of me?  haha theres a million

52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?  umm no

53. If you could rename me, what would my name be?  linolium or maybe crouton

54. Have you ever had a dream about me?  yea

55. A feature that you like about me:  i love your face

56. If you could give me anything, what would it be?  a pink kitty cat

62. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?  cat?


65. What word do I say all the time?  "you hate me" ::slap:: or meow

66. Is there anything you'd like to say to me?  hi jen!

The end!

And also there is this, which i stole from Alex, who stole it from someone else. we are all such theives.

Bold everything that is true about you.

01. I miss somebody right now

02. I don't watch much TV these days

03. I love olives

04. I love sleeping

05. I own lots of books.

. 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses

 07. I love to play video games

08. I've tried marijuana

 09. I've watched porn movies

10. I have been in a threesome

11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship

12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy

 13. I have acne free skin

14. I like and respect Al Sharpton

15. I curse frequently...(when I'm mad and alone)

16. I have changed alot mentally over the last year

17. I have a hobby

18. I've been told I can suck the chromes off a trailer hitch.

19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me

20. I'm really, really smart

21. I've never broken someone's bones

22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal

23. I hate the rain - I only like it in the summer.

24. I'm paranoid at times

25. I need money right now!

26. I love Sushi

27. I talk really, really fast sometimes

 28. I have fresh breath in the morning

29. I have semi-long hair

30. I have lost money in Las Vegas

 31. I have at least one brother and/or one sister

32. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.

33. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis

34. I have a twin - i have bestfriends who can read my mind, if that counts?

35. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past

36. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.

37. I like the way that I look sometimes

38. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months - probably so, i lie alot.

39. I am usually pessimistic

 40. I have a lot of mood swings

 41. I think prostitution should be legalized

 42. I think Britney Spears is hot

43. I have cheated on a significant other in the past

 44. I have a hidden talent 

 45. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have - usually, yes

46. I think that I'm popular

47. I am currently single 

48. I have kissed someone of the same sex - i kiss emily on the cheek. there is a picture, oh yes there is.

 49. I enjoy talking on the phone

 50. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants

51. I love to shop

52. I would rather shop than eat

53. I would classify myself as ghetto.

54. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders

55. I'm obsessed with my online journal - just the internet in general really.

56. I don't hate anyone.

57. I'm a pretty good dancer - I'm a hawt dancer

 58. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington

59. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother

 60. I have a cell phone

61. I believe in God

62. I watch MTV/Vh1 on a daily basis - Only VH1 regularly

63. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months

 64. I love drama (as in the acting kind, yea)

65. I have never been in a real romantic relationship before

66. I have rejected someone before

 67. I currently have a crush on someone

68. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

 69. I want to have children in the future.

70. I have changed a diaper before

71. I've called the cops on a friend before 

 72. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club - yes i like tom green, is there a club?

 73. I'm not allergic to anything

74. I have a lot to learn

75. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger

76. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie

 77. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes

78. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message

79. I have at least 5 away messages saved - i usaully save them all. they are funny when used out of context.

80. I have tried alcohol or drugs before - Only alcohol

 81. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past

82. I own the "South Park" movie

83. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Mindsay - yes i will do anything to avoid school.

84. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum

85. I enjoy some country music - i will confess.

86. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza 

87. I watch soap operas whenever I can

 88. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist

89. I have used my sexuality to advance my career

 90. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all

91. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"

92. Halloween is awesome

93. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it

94. I have dated a close friend's ex

95. I'm happy as of this moment

96. I was born in the 80s but I am truly a child of the 90s

97. I haven't showered in two days

98. I'd rather be in Germany than anywhere else. 

99. Im obsessed with getting manicures/pedicures

100. I want to visit Italy either for the first time or again...

101. I'm one of those types who are easily amused; the stupidest of things can make me laugh.

102. i've cried within the last week

103. I have flirted with someone I didnt like just to get something out of it. - well i have been known to flirt with pretty much everyone. though i usually just get amusement out of it.

104. I like at least three British Comedy TV Shows

105. I have overslept and missed my classes

106. I've been on TV

107. I listen to music no matter what I am doing

108. I yell at the TV when I watch sports

109. I miss being homeless

110. I've been cheated on before by a significant other

 111. ive killed someone before

112. I have eaten squid before..and I've liked it.

113. ive been on cops once or twice

114. I hate men, and also women, I hate all human kind

115. i had a crush on my friend's bestfriend.

116. I think Hilary Duff is a bitch

117. I have gotten raped before.

118. Ive hit someone with a car before 

119. I have been betrayed too many times to count

 120. I have mad b-ball skillz.

121. I'm afraid of fire

122. I've been called a fungus several times in my life.

123. I think people should finish eating before they speak.

124. Sometimes I pretend I don't care even though I do

 125. Sometimes I smile and pretend nothing's wrong, and everyone believes it

<3

Josh does!

I love you josh darling!

we listen to good charlotte and we likes it biatch./

<3<3<3

Nicole's latest blog entry made me so happy i dont go to highschool. i dont think i could survive it.

<3 i love you nicole!

=)

one two three four
can i have a little more?
five six seven eight nine tennnn
I LOVE YOU!

A, B, C, D
can i bring my friend to tea?
E, F, G, H, I, JJJJ
I LOVE YOU!!

Heck yes!

The Lord is so amazing!

<33333333

Today i am jealous, because everyone is making very awesome serious entries today. and i am feeling the peer pressure.. to make a serious entry. which is stupid, cause i really dont ever make serious entries. and i have nothing serious to post about. so for that matter i give up. being serious is not really me. and im going to be me rather i like it or not. so to post something serious would not be genuine and in that sense it would just be akward. so this is what im going to say today, and weather or not you like it, or weather or not it is serious enough for you, doesnt really matter to me at all.

My name is Jenny. I have low self confidence. no self esteem. i am somewhat depressive and i used to cut myself. i often question people's motives and i often over analyze everything that goes on in my life. i never feel i deserve any of the good things in my life. i generally hate myself and boys make nerveous when i like them. i constantly trip and/or run into stationary objects. i am incapable of high fives and walking straight. sometimes i dont eat for days. and sometimes i cry for no reason. i dont like to cry in front of people and i dont like confrontation. i usually hate to be alone and i have a huge fear of rejection. some days it seems like i live only for myself, instead of God. i am a selfish person, self centered and attention seeking. i am a sinner. i fail more than i suceed.

In spite of all this, i love the Lord with all of my being. He is the best thing in my life. His opinion of me is the only one that matters at all. to know that i am never alone, that he is always on my side, is an indescribable feeling. unconditional love is something i can i only begin to understand, but knowing that i have it is amazing. He has such confidence in me and that inspires me so much.

I believe that i am a good friend. my friends are the best in world and i wouldnt trade them for anything. some of them are people i feel i can trust with anything, and tell anything to. without the help of a certain few i never would have gotten out of what was once a very self destructive pattern in my life. they are such a blessing and i am always praying for and thanking God for them. you guys (you know who you are) you mean the world to me.

sometimes i dont like my family, they are big and loud and always in each others bussiness. but that in itself is a blessing. i wouldnt be who i am today without them. they have always been very loving and supportive. and i owe so much to them. its comforting to see that they will always be here for me. i love them all so much.

i dont like public speaking at all, it makes me too nervous. i love kids and i love to act like a kid. i like cherry coke and i drink at least half a carton of juice a day. i will always do anything i can to help someone else. i am never manipulative and im always smiling. i like wearing shorts in the summer and i love the beach. i like to break rules and i never think once. i am a shopaholic. i like playing with fire, jumping in leaf piles, ice skating, and family gatherings. i am probably the most paranoid person alive. i like to solve problems and i dont like to give up. i once fell out of a tree.

and i dont know where this entry is going. its not meant to be serious or entertaining of life changing. this is just me.. today.

 <3 Jen

it seems to me that pretty much everyone has trouble with their parents. and no matter how old you are, they are still your parents and you still have to deal with them. so basicly it comes down to this: if you respect your parents and their opinions, things will be alot better off for all of you. now im not saying that this will solve all problems. because God knows nothing ever will. but i am saying it helps. and i know that in every case this isnt going to work, because i dont think parents should controll everything their kids do and i dont think that parents are always right. but the point is that when you respect them and their opinions they will be much more likely to respect yours.

not to be all 'high and mighty' on the matter. but my parents and i usually have what i would consider to be a good relationship. i listen to them when they talk, i dont ever yell, because i cant take being yelled at, and in turn they listen to me. i guess i am very blessed to have the parents i do have. because in most cases i think a child telling their mother/father that theyre being completely stupid would seem to many parents disrespectful or backtalk of some kind. but i am not at all afraid to tell either of my parents that or anything like that. because nine times out of ten, they are being stupid. and in saying that i only want them to realize this, because usually they dont. and in turn they are never hesitant to tell me when im being stupid. which is surprisingly alot.

i realize not everyone has this kind of parent-child relationship. and im not saying you should. everyone is different and everyones parenting and/or rules are different. i also realize that many times a bad relationship with the child is entirely the fault of the parents. but sometimes it isnt. and to be honest, choosing to act badly and have a bad relationship with your parents just because you dont like them or their rules, only hurts you. it does nothing but prevent your parents from trusting you, respecting you, and letting you do the things you want to do. however, sometimes parents just dont get it, they think because you are their child you should do everything according to how they think it should be done. act the way they want you to act, wear what they want you to wear, ect ect ect. this is understandable to an extent, but to act as though your opinion and feelings are the only ones that matter is hurtful to the child. nobody likes to be told what to do and every child is an individual. they should be allowed to express this, as long as they are being safe and acting for the right reasons.  

so what it all comes down to is this, every parent and child has things they need to work on. nobody is perfect and nobody should expect perfection. parents and children have a lack of understanding, communication, and friendship. weather or not you believe it, i think you should be friends with your parents. and i think parents should be friends with their children. not the kind of friends you tell everything to, because Lord knows i dont tell my parents hardly anything, but at least someone you can trust, and whos opinion you are willing to listen to and respect. someone you can learn to live with.

so thats my rant for the day. thanks for listening.

<3 Jen

so basicly..

i broke the microwave today.

..

seems i have a knack for breaking things. i dont know how i did it either.

see

i was trying to heat up some chicken because my my made steak for dinner and i hate steak, and then it started making scary noises and sparking and smoking.

the end

<333333333

OMG!

GUESS WHOS BIRTHDAY IS IN A WEEK????!!

MINEMINEMINEMINEMINE<MIINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINE!!

<3<3

ignore that last entry. or at least the caps and exclamation points. im not really excited about my birthday at all. most likely i will just sit around and do nothing. and besides that, my birthday is a little cursed.

i always, get sick/get hurt/cry/cut myself/go to a funeral/get in a fight with someone i care about. or something of that nature. things always just go wrong. the end.

xox

i wrote all over my hand. it looks hot. yeah i was that bored.

so saturday we went to new york city. which is the coolest dirty place i have ever been. i like dirty places. but not like gross nasty smelly places where youre scared to go to the bathroom. but like places with stuff written on the walls/scratched into the tables. slightly vandalized places where the floor might be a little sticky but its okay if you have on the right kind of shoes. i like them. idk why.

but yeah, new york was awesome. i have pictures that are still on my camera. i might upload and post them eventually.

in other news.. noah 'whooshed' his hair, to quote him. i dunno what i would call it actually but hey, it looks really hot. he sent me a picture. mhmm.

okay so thats all i have to say.

<3<3<3<3<3

ps: i am a hot mexican. call me pepita.

I have a hot egyptian boyfriend.

<3<3<333

i think i am getting the flu.

..yep. just in time for my birthday =)

<3 whatta love

this is for you.
even though you cant see it
i think about you
more than you might believe it
and if youre not serious, just say it
and if this is meaningless, dont play it
and i dont mind sitting, waiting
as long as you feel it too.
but if this was all just your plaything
tell me, so it can be through.

and yes, id rather be hurt than clueless
and yes id rather be sad than subdued
and if you cant just be honest
there are worse things wrong with you
because interest for interest's sake, will never last forever.
and even though you might say im wrong. i think we arent together.
the distance shines right through your words.

you hurt me more than you think.

so go ahead and tear my heart apart. as long it appears to be good.
everything about you, is just appearences and words.
and i see through your appearence, i know now whats underneath.
and i recieve your words, with nothing but unbelief.
sincirity is hard to read, with guys like you
your honesty is something that
you think maybe might be true
i dont know you, but i get what youre all about.
and you dont know me, but you should get to know yourself.

<3

i gotta present in the mail from my emilyyyy todayyy! =D

she sent me a ring, hairclips, sunglasses, an awesome button, some sexy gloves and some panties that say 'catholic girls do it better' ahahhahhaa i freakin cracked up! i luff her! <333333

i also got a card from my grandma and grandpa. horray for mail!

<3

I think it's obvious that i am the cutest person in the world.

I fail at everything.. But at least im cute.

Its really all that matters.

Dont pretend.
Dont even try.
Cause in the end,
You're still the one who made me cry.

And I'm sick.
But not as sick as you.
And I'm sick
 of this
It moves in circles
Here we go again.
But this time is the last time.
          I'm done.
                   To hell with you and all your games.

So hang my picture on your wall
Youll take it down with your change of heart.
But its still nice to know
At least
I was your miss March.

Now dont,
Flatter yourself
This is for me,
And talk to me like
You dont know my feelings.
The brush off
What you said
Wasnt the truth.
So I'd rather you just tell me
Hurt feels better than oblivious.

So I'm saving myself from you
                                This is the jump off
 Its a long way back up to you.

And I dont wanna ever come back. you made me do this.

<3<3

i cant breathe.

..in other news,

 my birthday is tomorrow. i will be sitting in my house alone for most of the day, being sick most likely. my mom has a meeting thingy for most of the day too. so i wont even have anyone to pity me. boo.

also i think i might actually do something this weekend if i am well. with sam and katie. they are so nice =)

umm i dont get done with school til the 30th. and im going to TN at the end of june-ish. my mom wanted me to go turn in my aplication tomorrow but yeah.. its not happening. i havent even filled it out haha. and i will probably still be sick. eh.

my face hurts.

okay i have nothing else to say.. *makesaheart* lovenstuff
          xox

AHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHHHAHAHAHAHAH!

..

ITS MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYY!!

<33333333333333333

in addition to it being my birthday..

im pretty sure it is also the one year anniversary of my mindsay debut. not on this blog obviously but on my old one.. i didnt check or anything but its just a guess.

so thats kinda cool. i guess haha

i hate when im right about things. especially about my birthday being cursed.

my little cousin was just in a car accident. her name is Meg and shes 6 years old. everyone please pray for her. shes in the hospital and shes still unconcious.. they think its some kind of head injury but thats all we know right now. please pray

<3<3<3<3<3<3

Tomorrow night, @ rocketown.. underoath, the chariot, AND fear before the march of flames

why why whyyy arent i in nashville?? i am so jealous of everybody going. bah.

unfair. i am just going to sit here and pout. and sulk.

<333333333333

I'll be Matt Thiessen.. and you can be the Earthquakes.

Things i am (slightly) obsessed with:

turtles
hula hoops
office supplies
getting mail
panties
boxes
kittens
llamas
music
boys hahahha
hellium balloons
polka dots
chapstick
eyeliner
pink things
anything sparklie/shiny
mohawks
ducks
chocolate
juice
hats
pop tarts
play doh
yo-yos
running in sprinklers
chinchillas
mint cough drops
shopping
shampoo
going to shows
pajamas
funny words
flintstones vitamins
cake
ice cream
bagels
toasters
hello kitty
oldschool
seashells
um
yeah
your face

the end :)

A house on fire
A wall of stone
A door that once was opened
An empty face and empty bones.

Who ate your heart?
You're cold inside.
You're not the one I hoped for
I'll see you on the other side

The wind wouldn't blow me home
To lie in your heart of hearts.
Will I ever see you again
And lie in your heart of hearts?

<3 xox

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

and

.. (dotdot)

i have nothing to blog about. but i i just want to say this:

*stomp stomp* CHECK UR BATTERIES!!

just it case you havent noticed, it is gorgeous outside. SO GET OFF YOUR ASSES AND GO OUTSIDE WITH YOUR MOM PEOPLE!!

hehe.. i love you guyyyys! =)

<33<3 xox ;)

ps: my little brother is nine today! NINE PEOPLE! im just trying to figure out how he got from 5 to 9 so fast without me noticing. geez.

hgdslkdsjhsdhs

i dont care that i have to love him.

my dad is an ass.

• YAY!

new blog layout boys and girls!

its not exactly how i want it but whatever, im tired. so its good for now.

mmk tell me what you think.

day today:

• went to church
• did mommy things
• watched siblings
• played cards with family
• made ultrasexy header
• accidentally deleted it
• made this not as good header
• messed around
• rocked out
• the end

xoxoxox ..sleepie now. actually eating. then sleepie.

<3333333333333 i lover you lovelys! gnight *heartheart*

you're it.
my home away from home.
and i dont want this life anymore
im bored out of my mind
outside of everything.

what the hell is this feeling?
                        feeling?

<3

current music: the future freaks me out - motion city soundtrack

my sister mailed me pajamas for my birthday.

i miss her.

i will be so happy to be back in june. i really will.

xox

Name in band names (using ONLY great bands/artists):

J immy Eat world
E ve 6
N orma jean
N irvana
I ncubus

or

F ear before the march of flames
U nderoath
R elient K
T aking Back Sunday
H ives, The
E mery
R adiohead


2) Have you ever had a song written about you? um.. i guess i have.
3) What song makes you cry? if im in the right mood there can be quite a few. certain songs remind of certain people or certain times. I'll Be -Edwin Mcain, Iris - goo goo dolls, and of course Konstantine - Something Corprate.
4) What song makes you happy? lots
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? depends my mood. usually something emo or something screamo.

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'6" ish
HAIR COLOR: brown
SKIN COLOR: idk, white?
EYE COLOR: blue green or grey. they like to do the changing thing
PIERCINGS: 7 holes in ears
TATTOOS: none yet

r i g h t . n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: care bear pajama pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Love will come through - Travis
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: .. um. spit? yeah i havent eaten anything today.
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: lovely!
HOW ARE YOU? awesome. a little bored obviously

d o. y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: only if i go one too many spinning rides in a row.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yeah
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: usually
LIKE TO DRIVE?: heck yes!

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: that 70s show!
CONDITIONER: right now i have brilliant brunette, but im almost out.
BOOK: Bible
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Apple juice
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: sex on the beach, rum and coke.. or vanilla coke, smirnoff, idk
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: i dont do things.
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER: idk i have alot of favorites. id say Dashboard confessional, Mae, and SoCo.

h a v e . y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yes. i will admit it.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: when i was little i 'ran away' a couple times
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yessum
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: i think i would, but i havent yet 
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: heck yes! lindsey is the queen! lol
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: ewwwwie! no
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: idk
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yep
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: nope
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course, what else are friends for?
l o v e
GIRLFRIEND: no. i like boys
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: haha noo
CURRENT CRUSH: Noah.. i think by now this is old news
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: some stuff i dont feel inclined to talk about. 
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: nope


r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: i need to have one. but im being lazy.
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: burned one josh made me. its amazing
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: God, friends, getting mail, pink things, friends, flowers, polka dots, music, roller coasters, umm okay alot of other things.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: the new Mae cd.
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: Emily, Liz, josh, josh, Tiffany, Jason, justin, Julie

w h e n / w h a t . w a s . t h e . l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today ^_^
THING YOU PURCHASED: nail polish and a present for Liz
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: King of the hill lol, last night
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Im not telling cuz it has been way too long

and thats the end =)

<3

and the grave that you refuse to leave

  the refuge that youve built to flee

    the places that youve come to fear the most..

        is the place that you have come to fear the most.

i really hate you today.

  too bad its not your fault.

    <333333

dave matthews band. most likely the best cd i ever stole from my brother. though incubus' make yourself is a very close second.

can i just say

that i have that feeling again..

its okay if you dont know what im talking about. just pray for me please.

thanks. <345

i need to get out of the house. me and sam are gonna do something tonight or tomorrow i think.

emily mailed me a present she said. i want it now. rawr!

i dunno..

this entry has no point.

xox

music: Someone to love - Gratitude

ps: if you want to read an awesome entry, go check out Whitney's blog. i really liked her entry. you should read it.

superstitions make me laugh.

my friday the 13th was great people. sam and i decided to meet up at the mall and walk around and shop and stuff. joe ended up going with us too. after we shopped and such the mall was closing so we just went back to their house and hung out. we watched van helsing but me and sam both fell asleep haha.

and then

wow. people the weather today is perfect here. sunny breezey not too hot and just amazing. i shot some hoops, played frisbee with sam, and ate a snow cone in the park. what could be better on a day like today?

im hoping to paint my room tomorrow if we dont do family stuff. and if i am still motivated haha./

im gonna go now. <3333333!! lovelovelove! xox

ps: i just bought the everglow and it is freakin amazing. go but it right now if you dont have it. i love mae. yes.

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ahhhhhhhh dkjtesujsd. i dont even know why i write in this thing anymore.

nothing new. im debating painting my room. i need to call joshie. and rae.

i love you.

the end

music: Aqueous Transmission - Incubus

 I t s m a g i c !

today was.. boring.

my mom woke me up way to early cause she wanted me to go get my drivers lisence switched over. so i was like w/e. and then she waits until i am all the way ready to go and decides to call and make sure theyre open today. surprise surprise. theyre not. bah.

anyways i took my application back. idk if i even want that job. so yeah i guess if i get it thats good but i honestly dont care.

school sucks. i still have 2 more weeks. ugh. but i am finally getting to where it feels like its almost over. its a good feeling. ahhhhh.

im eating lifesavers for dinner. mmmmm

im gonna go do something <3<3

ps: i got a present in the mail today =)

ive decided i really hate this blog look. i wanna redo it asap.

If you try to fail, and succeed.. what did you just do?

..just a thought.

furthermore.. it is so obvious the chicken came before the egg.

im homeee aloneee!! and its cool! and im about to call liz i think! and shes cool!! you know i really miss my brother.. i realized he didnt even call me on my birthday. its not like i ever call him though. but i did on his birthday. idk why im missing him like this.. we arent even that close. oh well. the point is, for some reason i miss him alot.

im getting excited about school being out. and about summer. and nashville. and warped tour. and everything.

i wanna f a l l in love tonight.

<3333

Painted Skies.
I've seen so many that cannot compare to
Your ocean eyes.

The pictures you took that cover your room
And it was just like the sun
But more like the moon.
A light that can reach it all.
So now I'm branded for taking the fall.

<33333

..Just 6 more days of schooling

i can hardly stand the waiting anymore!

BWAAHAHHAHAHAHARARAWR!!FHGHDSGFUY6747';kfd/;fdhkfhdoihfkduyHJFJKF:IP?:{{PSLKHG

Jenni5488: boys make me confused all the time. i think they do it for fun or sport or something
Jenni5488: its just annoying
Blinkboy87: meh
Blinkboy87: girls do the same sweetie
Blinkboy87: i think its a species thing
Blinkboy87: its like monkies
Blinkboy87: they make you want to eat em, or be their friend
Jenni5488: hahaha
Jenni5488: i sooo totally dont do that to boys
Blinkboy87: yeah but i dont do that to girls
Blinkboy87: just others do
Jenni5488: haha
Jenni5488: we are so much cooler than other people
Blinkboy87: yep
Blinkboy87: we are so the napoleon and Pedro of the world
Jenni5488: hahahha
Jenni5488: can i be Pedro?
Jenni5488: or ded
Jenni5488: deb
Jenni5488: yeah i wanna be deb
Blinkboy87: sure
Jenni5488: yessss
Blinkboy87: i wanna be kirby
Blinkboy87: or jigglypuff
Jenni5488: LoL
Jenni5488: you cant say we are napoleon and then say we are nintendo
Jenni5488: you can be pedro
Blinkboy87: haha okie
Blinkboy87: josh taylor is So napoleon
Jenni5488: hahahhaa
Jenni5488: heck yes he is!
Blinkboy87: so im happy.. lacey isnt coming to graduation!
Jenni5488: lol
Jenni5488: YayyyY!
Blinkboy87: yes made me very happy
Jenni5488: sweet
Jenni5488: well hey im gonna go make cookies i think
Blinkboy87: AWESOME
Jenni5488: hahhaa
Jenni5488: so i might bbl
Jenni5488: or something
Blinkboy87: i doubt i will
Jenni5488: okay
Blinkboy87: got a long day tomorrow
Jenni5488: goodnight then! <3 have an awesome graduation
Jenni5488: go naked under your robe and paint my name on your chest
Blinkboy87: Haha
Blinkboy87: i might do that
Jenni5488: then you can take it off and everyone will think of me
Blinkboy87: of course
Jenni5488: they damn well better think of me!
Blinkboy87: but you know
Blinkboy87: people already think of you when they see me naked
Jenni5488: hahahahaha
Blinkboy87: i have this giant jenni tattoo on my chest
Jenni5488: yesssss
Jenni5488: well i guess that will work
Blinkboy87: yesh
Blinkboy87: it will
Jenni5488: <3 night love!
Blinkboy87: night love!

today is graduation day for Emily, Josh, Leah, Sam, Stephen, and Chris too!

i hope you all have an awesome one!!

i wish i could be theree!!

<33333333333

i love you all!

=)

mwahahahahha!! ..i have no life.

<33333

I stole this from Relly :) hope ya dont mind! <3

Name: Jen

Birthdate: May 4th

Birthplace: Nashville, TN

Grew up in: Nashville

Current Location: Pennsylvania

Eye Color: Blueish

Hair Color: Light brown

Righty or Lefty: Righty!

Zodiac Sign: taurus

LAYER TWO:

Shoes you wore today: polka dot flipflops!

Your weaknesses: i have alot. guys, for one thing. and ice cream.

Your fears: being alone. judgement.

Your most overused words or phrases: i say aw way too much.

Last thought before sleep: its never the same.. haha

Your thoughts first waking up: urrzkjgfdsjkbdskjgdsklgsd. i am not a morning person.

What day is it? Sunday

Your best feature: nothing

Your worst feature: everything

Your bedtime: whenever i feel like going to sleep. lately its been about 1

Your pet peeves: i keep my cds in a specific order.. with no rhyme or reaon to the order whatsoever.

Your most missed memory: alot of times things and places

LAYER THREE: Your Pick-

Coke or Pepsi: doesnt matter. just give it to me cherry flavored

McDonald's or Burger King: both are gross. but mcdonalds is better in my opinion.

Single or group dates: both are awesome.

Adidas or Nike: i dont care

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: iced tea reminds me of grandpas.

Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate all the way!

Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino. i dont like coffee drinks unless they dont taste like coffee.

LAYER FOUR: Do You...?

Cuss: yes but not all the time.

Sing: yep. but not well.

Take a shower everyday: pretty much

Have a crush(es): perhaps

Think you've been in love: i think i have been close.

Like high school: real school has too much drama. i think it would get on my nerves

Believe in yourself: somewhat

Get motion sickness: i am the same as Ariel, i get it from things that spin around.. but roller coasters are the best ever!

Think you're attractive: no

Think you're a health freak: no way. germs are a conspiracy of the government, designed to keep us from making out with strangers.

Get along with your parents: usually

Like thunderstorms: theyre freakin awesome

Play an instrument: noooo =(

LAYER FIVE: In the past month have you-

Drank alcohol: yes

Gone to the mall: yep

Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no. but ive almost eaten a whole bag of starbursts

Eaten sushi: ew. no

Gone skating:  nooo

Been on stage: i dont think so

Been dumped: no

Gone skinny dipping: nah, but ask me when the weather gets a little bit warmer

Dyed your hair: ahh nope

Stolen anything: no
LAYER SIX: Ever -

Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nah

Been called a tease: yes haha

LAYER SEVEN: Getting Older-

Age you hope to be married: whenever i meet the right person

Describe your dream wedding: traditional.. in a church or outside in springtime, flowers and me in a big white dress. you know the usual.

How do you want to die: old age

What do you want to be when you grow up: im planning to double major in fashion design and photography

What country would you most like to visit: ummm.. thats tough because i want to go everywhere. I'd say ireland or Italy.

Number of CDs that I own: i have never counted. dont quite have that much free time.

Number of tattoos: none yet

Number of times my name has appeared in a Newspaper/Magazine: i dont think it ever has. i dunno

Number of scars on my body: way too many for counting.. its just alot.

<3 the end!

Anyone with half a heart is at least half insane..

though i think i am more like three quarters.

<3

I think i broke my msn..

i am going to try very hard to redo this here blog today.

well.. maybe not very hard. but i will at least try a little.

<3

wheeeeeeeeeeeee!!

new blog look. i dont know if im finished with it or not yet. but lemme know what you think anyway. i had another thing i was gonna put as a background but when i got it up it looked all funny. so yeah i dunno.

i had a sore throat last night, and woke up this morning unable to speak. yes, it is true. Jenni's a mute. gahhh gsjhgdsjdsglkj its so annoying. and it hurts =( boo. pray for me to regain my speaking powers. cause this sucks.. for once i hope nobody calls me today. hahah

in other news..

TOMORROW IS SOOO TOTALLY MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!! HECK YES!!

bwahahaha. contain the excitement.

okay im done! <33

-loves-

current music: This type of thinking - Chevelle

Schools out for summer.

<333

Happy graduation day Alex! I love you!!

i can talk again. yay.

<3

I got yellow paint and perked up my room =)

I lovelovelove it!!

This is what it looks like up close ^^

And this ^^^

I painted my corkboard too =) i think it looks pretty awesome, if i do say so myself.

<333333

i have iced tea. its really good. but i just brushed my teeth. so now its weird tasting. i hate that.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one month til i will be in nashville!! =) yessssssss!

um

my house is scary. it makes creepy noises and some of the doors open and close by themselves. im home alone and its scaring me. haha i know, i am such a wimp. but youd be scared too. my door keeps opening and shutting. rjhgsldkjyseuytrsg

we are gonna go to a bbq today. i cannot wait. yessss

i look hot today.

the end. <33333333

if its true that there is beauty in imperfection..

then i should be an effing model.

rawr!

Jenni5488: hey so i painted my room
Jesusfreak14x: yea i saw it:-D
Jenni5488: oooo you did?
Jenni5488: do you like it?
Jenni5488: YOU KNOW
Jesusfreak14x: yesyes i do
Jenni5488: i dont have a single picture of us
Jenni5488: not one
Jesusfreak14x: :-(:-(:-(
Jenni5488: so
Jenni5488: when i come down we are going to take a picture
Jenni5488: make that 3 pictures
Jesusfreak14x: heheheh okay
Jesusfreak14x: a serious/awesome one
Jesusfreak14x: a goofy/awesome one
Jesusfreak14x: and a...random/awesome one
Jenni5488: yesssss!!
Jesusfreak14x: i like how we think
Jesusfreak14x: we think big
Jesusfreak14x: like donald trump
Jenni5488: yes
Jenni5488: except we have better hair
Jesusfreak14x: hahahaha
Jenni5488: =)
Jenni5488: you know its true
Jenni5488: hey
Jenni5488: i would like my own reality show
Jesusfreak14x: dude that'd kill
Jenni5488: you can be my cohost
Jenni5488: and we will just do random crazy stuff
Jenni5488: like order 100 happy meals at mcdonalds and drive backwards through the drive through
Jenni5488: and shave our legs in an elevator
Jesusfreak14x: hahahahaha
Jenni5488: and have a hula hoop contest
Jenni5488: seriously i mean if someone else came up with a show like that i would watch it every week
Jenni5488: wouldnt you?
Jesusfreak14x: mmhmm
Jenni5488: gah i dont know what im saying
Jenni5488: im too tired i think
Jenni5488: sorry =)
Jesusfreak14x: no i think its genius
Jenni5488: hahaha
Jenni5488: aww
Jenni5488: do you really?
Jesusfreak14x: mmhmm
Jenni5488: aw yay!
Jenni5488: you made me feel smart
Jenni5488: thankyou
Jenni5488: <3
Jesusfreak14x: :-D

-

Jenni5488: i think i would kiss john mayer
Jenni5488: if i had the chance
Blinkboy87: id hug him
Blinkboy87: and probly braid his hair
Blinkboy87: but thats just me
Jenni5488: haha
Jenni5488: ooo and i would kiss jack johnson
Jenni5488: hes great
Blinkboy87: id do kelly clarkson
Jenni5488: hahahaha
Jenni5488: shes pretty
Blinkboy87: mmhhm
Jenni5488: but i wouldnt do a fameous person, i would only kiss them
Blinkboy87: id do a famous person
Blinkboy87: if i knocked kelly clarkson up, id be set for life nigga
Jenni5488: hahahahah
Blinkboy87: first there'd be the money, 2nd there'd be the fact that EVERYONE knew you did the naughty with her, you'd be a pimp
Jenni5488: lmao
Jenni5488: heck yes
Jenni5488: but youd have a baby though
Jenni5488: and then what would you do with it
Blinkboy87: shiz if it got me money and pimp status i'd love it
Blinkboy87: but then again if i ever had a baby id love it no matter what the circumstances were
Jenni5488: aww yeah
Jenni5488: i guess i would too
Jenni5488: but im not having any til im married
Blinkboy87: same here
Jenni5488: so until i marry brandon boyd im not gonna knock him up
Blinkboy87: hehe
Blinkboy87: how can u knock him up?
Jenni5488: lol
Jenni5488: well
Jenni5488: i guess i cant
Jenni5488: but what i mean is i wouldnt do him unless we got married
Jenni5488: which we are going to
Jenni5488: so its okay
Jenni5488: im only making him wait
Jenni5488: til the wedding
Blinkboy87: hehe
Blinkboy87: yeah

-

Jenni5488: if i had my own reality show would you watch it every week?
heymynameistrev: probably not i hate reality tv
Jenni5488: pft
Jenni5488: come on
heymynameistrev: only if i saw you get naked
Jenni5488: i have way better hair then donald trump
heymynameistrev: lol
Jenni5488: pft you have to know me well enough to know i wouldnt get naked on tv
heymynameistrev: haha
heymynameistrev: :-(
Jenni5488: =(
Jenni5488: i cant believe you wouldnt watch my show
Jenni5488: i thought we were lovers
heymynameistrev: you have too many lovers
Jenni5488: but
Jenni5488: we are special lovers
heymynameistrev: oh then maybe i would watch it
Jenni5488: pft
Jenni5488: if you had a reality show i would watch it every week
Jenni5488: so that means i am a much better lover than you are
heymynameistrev: oh man that makes me happy
Jenni5488: lol
Jenni5488: well its supposed to make you feel guilty
Jenni5488: im trying to guilt you into watching my show
heymynameistrev: lol
heymynameistrev: well i hate tv so even saying i might watch it is a true show of my love
Jenni5488: lol
Jenni5488: okay sureee
Jenni5488: ill bte you love tv
Jenni5488: but you just hate me
heymynameistrev: i hate it
heymynameistrev: i love chappelle show
heymynameistrev: but i watch the dvds
Jenni5488: haha
heymynameistrev: and i love reno 911 but i dont even watch it cause i dont like tv
Jenni5488: i dont like tv much either. i usually only watch that 70s show
Jenni5488: ive never seen chappelle show
Jenni5488: haha
heymynameistrev: oh my god.
Jenni5488: =) sorry
heymynameistrev: when you come to TN
heymynameistrev: you have to watch it
Jenni5488: what happens if i dont?
heymynameistrev: i wont be your lover
Jenni5488: are you serious?
heymynameistrev: yes
Jenni5488: haha wow
Jenni5488: thats not very nice
heymynameistrev: chappelle is amazing
Jenni5488: well what if i watch it and dont like it
Jenni5488: ?
heymynameistrev: we will makeout instead
Jenni5488: hahahaha

-the end

<33333333

I am a Jenasaurusrex.

RAWR

Happy June people!!

last month i blogged every day except monday. what a bummer. i have never blogged a whole consecutive month.

anyways. i am making a list of goals for this month. right now.

• do laundry. seems like an odd goal but believe me when i tell you it needs to be first on the list.
• watch alice in wonderland 3 nights in a row.
• buy a hula hoop. and not the cheater water filled kind.
• cut hair.
• buy a new skirt
• get emily a freakin awesome present.
• buy and mail to liz some green panties. (dont ask)
• learn a sexy new dance move.
• buy the jack johnson or fall out boy cd (or both, depending on motivation and money)
• clean work shoes. because they are funk-nasty.
• pick a flower and give it to my mom.
• finish making scarf.
• finish hanging yellow hooks in my room
• find out what scones are and why people always have them with tea.
• kiss a dog.
• buy a jimmy eat world ticket. <3<3<3
• mail my sister her birthday present and card
• mail someone else a card (dont want to give away any surprises in case that someone happens to read this)
• listen to my a perfect circle cd. which i will now confess to have had since december and not once listened to all the way through. haha Elliott would probably hurt me if he knew.. after i bugged him for weeks to make it for me.
• read a book i have not read before. ( know any good ones?)
• water my plants every day. i am so bad about that.
• put my whole fist in my mouth (it almost fits you know)
• shave legs more often.
• walk around my block.. i have never done that before
• learn my own phone number (what? like i should know. i never call myself)
• play on a teeter totter
• learn to make a smore.
• make my mom buy ice cream and cheese potato soup
• thats all i can think of right now. too tired.

goodnight people

<3<3lovenstuff

im eating yogurt. mmmmm.

Ps: so far..

-bought a hula hoop

-watered plants 2 days in a row (today i gave them aquafina.. thats impressive water)

-sending my sister's stuff tomorrow

-finished hanging hooks.

Take that, list of goals!! mwahahaha

<3

..

my grandpa is coming today. =) he is sposed to be here anytime now i think.

so i am sposed to stay the night with sam tomorrow. cept she wont get online so i can find out stuff. but it should be fun, i think katie is staying the night too. and i think my myspace is broken again. stupid thing. its such a retard. blah

i cleaned my room like all.. really super clean. well my mom sort of made me cause my grandpa is coming. but still its pretty cool.

and i can check laundry off the list of goals. =) go me!

i watched toy story with my little brother last night. i forgot how much i love that movie.. almost as much as i love toy story 2. but not quite as much. yayyy my doodler is online hah! =)

talking to her now.. but yeah. im just trying to make this post incredibly long cuz i just wanna.

im making a list of all the things i wanna do in tennessee. its gonna be long when i am done. so everybody get ready. cause we are doing everything. okay? okay good.

kkkkkkkkdkjhgdslk

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

joshie is so cool. i should just like call him today. i may do that later.. i will try not to forget. thats the master plan

<3 i am out of things today.

ps: emily i found my homemade pajama pants last night, member those? hahah they are so awesome.i look like a g in them ;)

hahahahha.. okay.

yesterday, finally went to sam's house after like we kept missing each others call and whatnot. Katie was already there by the time i got there. so we just hung out and goofed off it was so much fun! we did makeup girly stuff, took pictures, ate pizza (sam eats but she doesnt swallow hahah) we were just being stupid. katie kept talking with her mouth open lol. then we played a little nintendo, while katie dressed like a man and kept getting attacked by joe/attacking joe whenever it wasnt her turn lol. soo anyways finally around 3 30 we calmed down enough to eat ice cream and watch a movie. we rented halloween 4. it was alrigh i guess. katie fell asleep. so after it was over at like 5 or so me and sam put in shreck so we could go to sleep to a happy movie lol but i dont think either of us made it much past the credits.

this morning, we didnt get up til like 11, ate breakfast (poptarts mmm) watched tv with Joe, katie left at like 11 30 and my mom came at 12. the end. it was good times

still havent missed a day watering my plants.

i kissed a dog today.

ummmm

yes i am out of things. i wanna buy a cd. bah.

<3 i love everyone! heartheart

xoxox =)

let see..

today it is unreasonably hot. its just not natural. blahhh. sooo hot

we went to church this morning, then my grandpa left right after that, he took clark with him cause clark wanted to go early to see all our cousins. im sad that he isnt here though.. hes such a crazy little boy. but yeah we will be up there on friday anyways.. idk why we are going to Jon's graduation anyways, lol its not like he'd come to mine.. oh well.

after church i came home breifly, then me and kelso went to wal mart, i got hair dye, its not permantant though. but im still excited. i will probably use it tomorrow.

i bought the modest mouse cd.

and i bought a present for emily. mwahahah

and something for liz.

and.. something else i think but i forget. i duno.

but its fun. i am soo enjoying summer. and i cannot wait til i get to nashville

but now i must go and clean. mommy says. i <3 you guys!

xoxox

ps: today is my sister's birthday!! so.. even though she wont see this, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY MARLENA!! I LOOOVVVVEEE YOU!!

um

i dyed my hair today/. its dark brown and it lasts for 28 washes.

hehe

maybe picture tomorrow.

it pretty much stormed alll freakin day. how sad. i wunna go somewhere tomorrow. but alas there is nowhere to go.

blah

<3 to everybody.

i cannot wait until the end of the month.

Everybody look at my new dark hair. I like it hehe. its not permanant though. lasts 28 washes.

 mmkay so tell me what you think people! <333 xoxox -Jen

List of things to do in Nashville: (this is just what ive come up with for now, im sure there will be more things to add)

• Make smores
• Sleep in a tent
• Watch "passport to paris" w/ Emily
• Go to a concert *coughJimmyeatworldcoughcough*
• Go to nashville shores
• Feed ducks/Do the duck dance
• Watch Emily give a taco to a hobo
• Play in a cardboard box
• Steal something from a restaurant
• Eat a snowcone
• Buy fun-dip w/ Liz
• Find a slightly aggressive turtle at the park and proceed to name him Fred.
• Go to the Archer's house and eat pizza and hang out like in the good old days
• Go to the zoo/Blue goose cafe with Jules
• Hang w/ Joshiepoo and Amy.
• Go to the WC fair
• Goof off at the mall
• Have a techno party w/ Josh
• Make tons of money as a dancing waitress
• Harass Joshie at his place of work.
• Go to the wave pool
• Bounce around downtown
• Play volleyball with Marlena and Ryan
• Go ice skating
• Steal blue bandaids from work ( as many as possible )
• Hang out w/ Tiff
• Go shopping. All. The. Time.
• Dye hair with Lindseychild
• Make late night wal-mart runs
• Roll somebody's front yard
• Watch Rae's dance recital video
• See Jimmy eat world and Green day
• Pet a llama
• Get my picture taken with the shark at opry mills
• Blow stuff up (maybe have a bottle rocket war?)
• Cruise with Emilio while listening to convertable music
• Bust a move
• Eat steak n' shake
• Listen to bad rap. you know im a gangsta, fool.
• Play at CD pork ( Aka CD park )
• Dress like a thug
• Take a million pictures.

Thats all I got so far.

Later people

xoxox <333333

My skin smells like banana bread and herbal esseces. idk why.

today i made muffins and ate poprocks

..

ugh

i love my friends.

i made somethinggg for emily today.

i like to call people dumpling. i got that from kira i think.. who knows.

i wonder if you miss me.. as much as i miss you?

and at the same time i miss missing you.

..

dont ask

<3

I dont feel like myself today.

..but on second thought, maybe i feel more like myself than i have in months. i think i forgot what myself feels like.

-

I want to go home. not here, obviously.. but really home. i wanna go back to my old living room and sit on our huge blue couch, watch blind date with my big sister. each of us with a pint of ben and jerrys, just talking. why cant we go back to the way things were? I miss simple.

yeah okay, i know i am being childish about this. but i dont care. i never claimed to be an adult.

<3

ps: Everybody please pray for my Grandma. shes got a hole in her heart. =(

Today i went to wal mart. =) I got a magazine, annnd polka panties, and some shaving cream. it smells so yummie. I love it!

oh and i bought Liz some green panties and mailed them to her. mwahahahha.

its hotter than hell up in here.

it stormed another amazing storm today.. it was the best one yet. i had to close my window cause the wind was blowing so much rain in it. but it was awesome. so loud and windy and.. just awesome.

we're going to ohio tomorrow and i think we're staying until sunday or monday. partly because my cousin Jon is graduating. and partly to see my Grandma in the hospital. I'll prolly update while im there, my grandpa has a really nice computer haha

okay im outa here

lovelove! <3333333

ps: Emily, I mailed you somethin today!! =) mwahahaha

Okay so im in ohio. at my grandpas house. its cool.

uhhh letsee. the drive was long uncomfy and boring. 5 hours. blah. then we uhh went to my cousin Jon's graduation party. which was pretty fun. I hung out with mike, just messing around, making fun of people (Jeff) haha. Meg was there.. i am so amazed at how great she is doing it has only been like a month since the accident. Thanks again to everybody who prayed. God is soo amazing. shes walking and talking and everything. so exciting.

in other news.. my grandma died today. no i dont want to talk about it. but marlena and brad and ryan are coming up and stuff. so i dont know how long we are gonna be here.

and i think now im going to my aunt molly's house, theyre having a bonfire and my cousins are just so cute!

<3 much love.

Im okay with it now.

okayokay.

today was just.. whatever. slept in. marlena, ryan, and brad left this afternoon. i really didnt want them to though. bah. then we went to my aunt molly's house to watch all the kids go swimming. that was throughly hilarious.

we are not close with my family on my dads side at all. adk why its just theyre weird i guess. but yesterday i saw my cousin todd for the first time in like.. 14 years or something? it was crazy cause i obviously didnt remember meeting him before. hes 31, married with a 7 year old boy. but yeah he is really cool. its just weird that it was basicly the first time i ever met him. his son is insane haha. like more wild than clark even. it was funny.

kygfsuyktrjvjhgfb, i just sat on my phone haha. and it lit up and stuff. wow i am a nerd.

ummm okay so

2 weeks!

BAHAHAHAHA!!

im so friggin excited. somebody tell me what we're doing for the 4th. i wanna blow stuff up.

<3toyouall!

Why does anyone want to hurt themselves? This is something I do not undertand at all. even having experienced this type of thing myself I still dont understand it at all. Good people do this. Christian people. people who appear to be happy. I just dont get it. self mutilation is a vicious cycle. for me it was an outlet.. i got tired of pretending to be happy. I got tired of smiling when i didnt want to. I hated myself and I just didnt want anybody to know how i felt. I thought of myself as this truely horrible person. undeserving of anything I recieved. I would hurt myself because of the hatred I had built up towards myself. Then i would hate myself more for hurting myself. Punish myself for punishing myself.

This is not healthy.. its not normal. I know that now. I think i knew it back then too, but I didnt want to face it. I think its true that some girls do it for attention. half hoping someone will find them out. Girls who make it out to be this very dramatic experience and post about it in their blogs. they get people replying saying "you shouldnt do that to yourself" ect ect. they want to feel cared about. so they give people a reason to care. something to get their attention. I know this is not always the case. It wasnt for me. It was something deeper and more personal. It had alot to do with depression and the stuff going on in my life.

It doesnt help that people put such pressure on young people today. especially girls. the pressure to be thin and beautiful and popular and smart. It comes not just from the media but from all around them. Their parents or maybe their seemingly perfect sister. Good Christian girls often struggle with perfection. eating disorders, self mutilation, anorexia and buliemia, depression and suicide. It just isnt enough to be yourself anymore. Its not good enough, If its not too fat or too ugly its too skinny or too small boobs. Its not enough to be fearfully and wonderfuly made anymore. people want more, they are taught to want more. These girls are pressured so much. it almost makes me sick to think about it. its almost no wonder so many of them struggle with these things. it hurts me so much to see people like that.

There is beauty in imperfection. natural beauty is the only true beauty in this world. all these girls need to realize how beautiful they really are. Inside and out. they have so much going for them yet so many throw it all away for a chance to be "thin" or "perfect" or what they think is "pretty". News flash: girls who are sick like this do NOT look pretty. they look sick, they make me sick to look at. they look just horrible. Its so obvious they are so self concious. you can see it in their faces. i know because i am the same way. self concious all the time. It breaks my heart to see girls like this.

I just want to know why anyone feels the need to do this. Its not good enough to just be yourself anymore. and the saddest part is, that the world made it that way.

People just need to wake a realize they are beautiful as is. They are made that way for a reason. somebody somewhere is going to think they are the most perfect person alive.

my grandpa has a dog named pumpkin.

we usually just call her punk.. or punky.

shes getting authritus though =(

<33

ps: my new shaving cream makes my legs and armpits smell like sunny d. its awesome.

Im redoing my blog. yay!

<3

ps: what happened to quick updates? i dont see them.. no press F9 or anything. hmmm

You gotta love driving in an awesome storm! =)

 I thought they were pretty cool. enjoy! xox

<3 Jen

um

new themeeeee people.

let me know what you think. =)

<3 Jen

ps: If you dont like the blue.. feel free to blame Noah, cause he picked it. though im pretty sure he had no idea what he was picking.. it is still his fault!

well i cant sleep.

..yay.

So Im just going to say this.

boys are stupid.

girls who think too much about boys are stupid.

especially when that boy lives in tennessee.. 15 hours away, works at a drycleaners, plays guitar in hxc band.. and has a million better things (and girls) to think about besides me.

I am stupid.

<3 the end

Ahhhhhhh omg bored.

I wanna do something but theres nothingggggg to do. Maybe I'll see if Katie wants to do something on monday or something. I know shes busy today and tomorrow. Sam is outa town.. boo. Well I guess thats what I get for only having two friends lol.

Heheheeee! Nine days, boys and girls! jhgkjsdfghdsgdsh excitement!!

My hair smells yummie. hurray.

okay this is a pointless entry. sorry guys.

<3

Describe Your
x. [ Wallet ] Pink and purplee duct tape. its gorgeous.
x. [ Hairbrush ] erm.. black and tan
x. [ Toothbrush ] ones aqua and ones red and white. (yeah, i have two.. so what?)

x. [ Jewelry Worn Daily ] earings in all holes (seven) umm 3 rings, a necklace, some bracelets, 3 rope anklets.
x. [ Blanket ] turquiose
x. [ Facewash ] mary kay.. boughten from my mommy
x. [Coffee Cup] dont have one. i dont normally drink it.
x. [Sunglasses] polka dots!! black and white..
x. [Underwear] right now? pink boyshorts
x. [ Shoes ] i have alot of shoes. today I wore my polka dot flip flops
x. [ Favorite Shirt ] ummm okay its black with red and white writing on the front. it has holes cut in the shoulders and chains on on side. i dont know. i cant really explain it too well. its cool, though.
x. [ Favorite Pants ] jeans with a star and the butt pocket

x. [ CD In Stereo Right Now ] ?? i think.. 3 days grace.. or goo goo dolls.
x. [ Tattoos ] nope
x. [ Piercings ] 7 holes all in my ears
x. [ What You Are Wearing Now ] carebear pj pants and a black tanktop/.
x. [ Hair ] dark brown still
x. [ Height ] 5'6"ish
x. [ Live With ] mother father sister sister brother
[ When was the last time you ... ]
x. [ Smiled ] today
x. [ Laughed ] today at my little brother
x. [ Cried] dunno. i cant think.
x. [ Danced ] a while ago. sheesh i need to practice.

x. [ Were Sarcastic ] probably today.
x. [ Had A Nightmare ] like when i was seven or somethin
x. [ Last Book You Read ] the sisterhood of the traveling pants
x. [ Last Movie You Saw ] idk. save the last dance i think
x. [ Last Thing You Had To Drink ] Milk. It does a body good.
x. [ Last Thing You Had To Eat ] Spaghetti

x. [ Do You Look Like Any Celebrities ] Probably not.

[ Body ]
x. [What Do You Like Most About Your Body] nothing
x. [And Least?] everything
x. [How Many Fillings Do You Have] one
x. [Do You Think You Are Good-Looking] hahahhaha. no way.
[ Fashion ]
x. [Do You Wear A Watch] never. i am against them
x. [How Many Coats And Jackets Do You Own] um.. maybe 4? not including hoodies
x. [Favorite Pants Color] blue jeans
x. [Most expensive Item Of Clothing] i dunno. i am not one to spend alot on just one thing.
x. [Describe Your Style In One Word] random
[ Your Friends ]
x. [Do Your Friends Know You] Duh.
x. [Are There Traits In You That Are Universally Liked?] I spose. people usually like me i think..
x. [How Many People Do You Tell Everything To] only God
[ Music/Television/Books ]
x. [Favourite Band Ever] just one? i cant pick.
x. [Type of Music Most Listened To] rock/punk/emo/hardcore

x. [Type Never Listened To] country is rare. and classical

x. [Favourite Book?] Bible
[ General Questions ]
x. [Sunny or Rainy Day] Sunny. rain only when I want to play in it.

x. [Do You Consider Yourself Lucky] no, just blessed.
x. [Do You Feel Pity For People Who Commit Suicide] yeah.
x. [Choose One Word To Describe How You Most Often Feel] weird.

x. [Do You Own Plaid Clothing] ummm.. I have a skirt and also some hotnsexy pants
x. [Is There More Than One Zipper On Your Pants] on the ones im wearing now? no.
x. [Do You Own Braces] not anymoree
x. [Does Your Hairstyle Exceed A Height Of Three Inches]  no. but maybe oneday =) (mohawk!!)
x. [Do You Have A Favorite Brand Of Hair Dye] me and emily like the red box. its awesome
x. [Do You Own A Bandana] yes. cause im a thug like that.
x. [Are You Amused By Safety Pins] heck yes! and also paper clips.

x. [Have You Ever Used Duct Tape As A Sewing Substitute] lmao yes i have
x. [Do You Like Candles] yes.. I love fire
x. [Do You Believe In Love] of course
x. [Do You Believe In Soul Mates] yeah

x. [Do You Believe In Love At First Sight] not really

x. [What Do You Want Done With Your Body When You Die] I want to be an organ doner

x. [What Are You Gonna Do When You Get Older] Jobwise? I dont know for sure yet
x. How many Songs Do You Have On Your Computer] a good amount
x. [What Band Are You Listening To] Incubus.. mmmm.
x. [Look Out Your Window... Tell Me What You See] the window is across the room but i am lazy. i would probably see my dad mowing the lawn, the front porch, the street, and maybe the neighbors dog.
x. [If You Could Have Any Animal For A Pet] Llama!! or.. penguin.. or chinchilla.. or maybe a little puppy.

x. [What Is The Longest You Ever Stayed Up] like 36 hours. ish.
[ Habits/Beliefs ]
x. [Are You Disgruntled] nah
x. [Are You An Anarchist?] i.. dont think so?
x. [Do You Smoke Cigarettes?] no way.
x. [Are You A Vegetarian?] no but i've thought about it

x. [Do You Think Meat Is Murder] yeah kinda. unless its chicken. cause i love chicken.
x. [Have You Ever Slept In An Alley Or Park] hahaha i dont think so
x. [Do You Wash Your Hair Less Than Once A Week] ewwwww!! this isnt the 90s anymore people
x. [Have You Ever Gone A Week Without A Shower?] gross! definately not!
x. [ Age ]   17

x. [ Birthday ] May 4th
x. [ Sign ] taurus
x. [ Location ] Here in PA
x. [ Natural Hair Colour ] brown/blonde
x. [ Current Hair Colour ] Dark brown
x. [ Eye Colour ] Blue or green or grey. they change

x. [ Word ] What?
x. [ Animal ] as in my favorite? I dont know i can never make up my mind.
x. [ Flower ] pink roses. and daisys.
[Favorites]
x.[Number] 7!!
x. [Color] pink!!
x. [Day] idk. i like weekends.
x. [Month] July
x. [Song] Echo - Incubus, The swiss army romance -Dashboard confessional, All these things that Ive done - The killers, Konstantine - Something Corprate, This time is the last time - Mae, We're so far away - Mae, Many many more.
x. [Movie] The notebook, Mean girls, Armageddon, All the batman movies, The ring.. i cant think of any more right now.
x. [Food] Ice cream?
x. [Season] probably summer
x. [Class] ? Art class?
x. [Teacher] my mom, mrs J, Mrs dyer.
x. [Drink] juice
x. [Veggie] broccoli i guess
x. [Television Show] that 70s show!
x. [Radio] i dont listen to the radio cept in the car and even then im a station surfer.
x. [Store] target is nice. so is goodwill.
[ This/That ]
x. [Me/You] both!

x. [Coke/Pepsi] cherry coke
x. [Day/Night] depends.
x. [CD/Cassette] cd
x. [DVD/VHS] doesnt matter

x. [Jeans/Khakis] jeans
x. [Car/Truck] car
x. [Tall/Short] doesnt matter
x. [’NSync/BSB] Nsync! you know everybody secretly loves them.

the end =)

<33333333333333

I stole this from Kari (lilmissme003)

you are...(looks)

[] tall
[x] in between
[] short
[x] blonde
[] redheaded
[x] brunette
[] black-haired
[x] blue-eyed
[] brown-eyed
[x] green-eyed
[] hazel eyed
[] gold eyed
[x] grey eyed
[] with glasses
[] with contacts
[] with braces
[] with freckles
[x] with piercings 
[] with tattoos
[] and have long hair
[] and have short hair
[x] and have mid-length hair

Your nationality includes...

[] chinese
[] indian
[] taiwanese
[] japanese
[] hispanic
[] nicoya
[] puerto rican
[] chicana
[] italian
[x] scottish
[] filipino
[] dutch
[] french
[] german
[x] irish
[] greek
[] portuguese
[] polish
[] korean
[] jamacian
[] canadian
[] lithuanian
[] native american
[] russian
[] british
[] danish
[] african
[] scandanavian
[] norwegian
[] armenian
[] finnish
[] bohemian
[] austrian
[x] other

Your favorite color(s) is/are?

[] red
[x] pink
[] yellow
[] black
[] green
[x] blue
[] white
[] silver
[] purple
[] brown
[x] orange

Some things you've done/played include... (very small doses of some...)
[] soccer
[] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[] lacrosse
[] field hockey
[] hockey
[] football
[x] flag football
[x] softball
[] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[] track/cross country
[] basketball
[x] baseball
[x] volleyball
[] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[] kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[] marching band
[x] swimming

You are sometimes...

[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[x] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird


The music you like is?

[x] rap
[x] rock
[x] classic rock
[] pop (some)
[] country
[x] hip hop
[x] r&b
[] slow jams
[x] Christian
[] classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[x] punk
[x] Metal
[] reggae
[] Goth
[] Latin
[x] musicals

The pets you have are?

[] cat
[] dog
[] lizard
[] rat
[] ferret
[] rabbit
[] fish
[] Bird
[] other

Clothes you like to wear are?

[x] t shirts
[x] sweatshirts
[x] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] boots
[] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] pj pants 
[] boxers 
[x] underwear
[x] dresses
[x] skirts
[] long skirts
[] watches
[x] necklace
[x] hoop earrings
[] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[x] halter tops
[] stilletos
[x] band shirts
[x] shorts
[x] cut offs

How do you like to wear your hair?

[x] down
[x] ponytail
[] pigtails
[x] messy bun
[] half ponytail
[x] curly
[] bun
[] crimped
[] with a bandana
[x] French braids
[] lots of little braids
[] Gel
[] hat
[] messy hot guy hair
[im pretty sure i dont get this] sex hair

You're mostly labeled as?

[] goth
[x] emo
[] prep
[x] punk
[] hippie
[x] nerd
[x] ditzy
[x] hyper
[x] happy
[x] everything
[x] I hate labels!

You eat?

[] dessert every night
[] no meat
[x] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[] a lot of carbs
[] lots of meat
[x] salad
[] seafood

A typical friday night...

[x] mall with your friends
[x] partying (with friends)
[x] watching movies
[] going to the club
[] staying home
[] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[] working while your friends are out having fun
[] at something to do with sports/school

Currently you are...
[] in a relationship
[x] single and lovin' it
[x] crushing
[] single and looking for someone
[] just broke up...and so sad about it

Online, you use:

[x] lol
[] sup
[] =D
[x] lmao
[] stfu
[] ty
[x] jk
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[x] hahahaha

I have kissed someone...

[x] on the cheek.
[x] on the lips.
[] on their hands or fingers.
[] in my room.
[x] in their room.
[x] of the same sex.
[x] of the opposite sex.
[x] related to me (not in a gross way)
[] younger then me.
[x] older than me.
[x] with jet black hair.
[x] with curly hair.
[] with blonde hair & blue eyes.
[] with flaming red hair.
[x] with straight hair.
[] smaller/shorter than me.
[x] bigger/taller than me.
[] with a lip ring.
[] who was drunk.
[] who was high.
[] who I had just met.
[] who was homosexual.
[] who I didn't really want to kiss.
[x] on a holiday.
[] who was going out with someone close to me.
[x] who was my good friend's brother or sister.
[] who had been/is in jail.
[] in a graveyard.
[] at a show/concert.
[] at the beach.
[] in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
[] who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
[] with dyed hair.
[] with a shaved head.
[x] who was/is my good friend.
[x] who was/is in a band.
[x] who has tattoos.
[x] who is of a completely different race than me.
[x] in the rain.
[] in another continent besides where I was born.
[x] with an accent.
[] with an std.
[] on a boat.
[x] in a car/taxi/bus
[] on a plane.
[] at the circus/carnival.
[] with a missing body part.
[x] in the movies.
[x] eskimo style.
[x] butterfly style
[] spider-man style

=) the end

I figure I'll stick with tradition..

-Dress up like a thug

- Yell at the fireworks ("piiiiiiinnnnnnnkkk!!"

-color my hiar pink with magic markers

-make fun of little sisters' annoying songs. (Snuggle cupboard!!)

-maybe make up a dance in the driveway.

<3 and thats it! =)

Im going to Ohio tomorrow.

And i packed my polka dot dress.

And it is the point of no return..

I WILL NEVER COME BACK!! NEVAAARR!!

..heh

<3

Everybody go outside and enjoy it RIGHT NOW!

It is a glorious day here in PA!

or at least go get the mail.. and enjoy it.

Behold.. The new shoes!

 And also.. me. sorry.

<3333 xoxox

Realization:

 Tonight is my last night in PA for the next 2 months. The state will miss me.. what a tragedy.

<333

been in ohio since late last night

got caught in construction traffic yesterday so we took a detour which ended up taking even longer. all in all including stops it was an 8.5 hour trip.

saw 5 shirtless hot boys on the side of the road.

today i met two of my cousins that i havent seen since i was 4. theyre very nice.

i will be here, as in ohio, til tuesday.. and then its on to tennessee!! yay!

xoxoxoox

<3 Jen

we are going to six flags on monday.

heck yesssssssss!!

=)

Omg. Geauga Lake was amazing. I rode sooo many kickass roller coasters. It was just so cool. And we went to the water park too and did the water slides and stuff. freaking awesome. I loved it.

I got a henna tattoo on my back. it is way hot.

Now..

Since I am going to be in Tennessee for the next 2 months or so.. It is likely that I will not be posting/ replying as much. So please be patient with me people!! And please leave me lots of lovely comments while I am gone!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

xoxooxx

<3 Jen

=)

TN is awesome. i am having the best time! my family left to go back to PA this morning.. so thats cool. and kinda weird. Already i have been to three parties, and spent a shitload of money. i am hoping to start work again sometime this week and then i will be making money so thatll be awesome. anywayss i need to go shopping and buy superfly clothes. and panties.

and i just wanted to say hi to you guys. i loooveeee you all!! xoxoxox

ttly

<33333333 Jen

I dont know what to talk about.

work work work. i worked friday saturday today and then i work tomorrow and tuesdsay. blahhhhh!

and then NEVER AGAIN!! YAY!! hahaha excitement.

sunday is my last day here. hmm. seems like ive been here forever. and it seems like i just got here. i dont know

morgan made a big bruise on my shin today. he soo owes me a new leg. and i busted open my knuckle today too. HURRAY FOR BLUE BANDAIDS!! HURRAY FOR 100 DOLLAR SHIFTS!! =)

i wanna go to the fair on friday. everyone is invited. unless i dont like you.. in which case please dont come.

i just want to say that i love all these people:
Emmma
Linhey
Joshiepoo
G Wiz Liz
Jules
Alex
Morgie
Nasar
Marlena
Tiffy
Jossshhh
Noah
Jos
Jake
Kira
James
Say
Chad
Net
Jason
AND Justin

AND ERIC!!

k <3<3<#<3<3lovlovelove

ITSOVERRR!!

one week til im back in PA baby. the state missed me im sure.

<3

Some guys really weird me out.

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im not going to specify.

k i dont know what else to say

<3<3

wait..

yes i do.

I love Alex.

the end

just for record. im back in PA.

hurray.. or something. :)

<3

ps: expect a picture entry sometime in the near future. as soon as i get bored/unlazy enough. its gonna be neat

i tried to put all these in some kind of order..

me and my beautiful sister. this was taken on the 4th of july. both of us are a little 'tipsy'

This next bunch are all from viginia beach

Me and Liz inside a dinosaur egg. RAWR!

Me

Liz haha

Me

Me again.. sorry

My name in the sand and feetprints =)

Liz being liz. this has to be the best picture ever. seriously..

As i mentioned before, cussing in public is illegal in VA beach. a policeman will write you a ticket if youre heard. these signs were everywhere and there were stickers in all the shop windows and everything. this one was on a lampost.. i found it hilarious.

Liz and I pimpin the crazy hats

The end of VA beach.

These are all pics from Jenni and Tina's day out lol

We are princesses.. obviously

this was in dillards. we took pictures in there for like 30 mins. it was so funny. the lady working there thought we actually liked the hats and things.

Ugly old lady scarves.. we make them look good.

The sales lady took this one for us.

Yes, we rode the carousel. what do you think, im going to act my age or something?

Laughing because im trying to to take my own picture without falling off my high horse

Okay.. i dont know.

Pay phone

Funny how we are making almost the exact same face

Last but not least. the heart bruise.

Jenni took a picture of the mystery bruise that appeared magically on her upper leg one day.

Jenni notices the heart resemblence, outlines the bruise with a pen, and proceeds to take another picture. I thought it was pretty impressive looking. :)

annnd thats all im gonna post. cause its dinner time, and im sure if youve read this far you are already loosing interest =) laterrrr

lovelovelove

<3 Jen

expect this here blog to be redone in the next few days hopefully

soon as i can figure something out.

went to the doctor today expecting to get poked with some needles. we get there and wait for like half an hour ans then they decide that i can wait until january to get poked. it was just a waste of time. gonna start looking for a job soon. i like money. annnd we start school on tuesday. boo. not excited. im hoping for a quick schoolyear and no graduation ceremony or anything of that sort. i just want it to be overrr.

hm

<3

The lights in our eyes
Have all gone dim
All my thoughts and prayers
Reaching out to him
Hoping for something
A symbol, a sign,
A glimmer of light,
A flutter of white.

Someone please
Pinch me, touch me
Wake me up
Can't you hear me screaming?
Screaming at you
Screaming at God
Yearning for some kind of healing.

I'm breaking inside
Why can't he be alive?
Don't You know that we need him?
I taste the goodbye
I feel my insides
Remember it was him who stopped the bleeding.

I need you to know
That I wont let go
There's memories burned in my being.

Please
Reach me, touch me
Wake me up
Only God can hear me screaming.

xx

I found this hilarious:

<3

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..frustration

My ribcage is uneven.. really.

i cant decide if i am missing a rib or just have an extra one.

Im going to a bbq today. its gonna be cool. and im going swimming. maybe. if im lucky.

and i love everyone.

<3

well whatd'you know..

heheh

School tomorrow. ewww.

and THEN

I have to go get my teeth poked at the dentist. boo. double ew.

that is all. <3<3

(I love Alex.)

just so you know

my new Jack's Mannequin cd is the shiiiitt

my room smells like a doctors office.

The Exorcism of Emily Rose.. was sooooo scary.

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i will not be sleeping until after 3 tonight hah.

note: i can now get to and from the mall without getting lost. and i am extremly proud of it.

im eating a ringpop =)

<3

"I keep hearing about all these people getting killed by bees.. what kind of people does this happen to? I mean if im out walking in the woods or whatever and i hear a bush or something going 'buzz buzz' im not gonna walk and rummage around in it like 'OH WHAT IS THAT BEES IN THERE?!' and even if the bees just come out and find you.. SO WHAT? I would punch EVERY BEE in the FACE!"

6) If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter? i dont know. a turtle?

7) What's the oldest article of clothing you own? i dont know. some stuff ive had since i was like 12

8) What piece of furniture have you replaced the most? chairs? or maybe a dresser.

9) What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at? guitar or piano

10) Record, tape or CD? tapes are annoying.

11) What do you think would be the best concert ever? i dont knowww

12) What is the best part of your favorite movie? umm.. when Alice gets stuck in the white rabbits house. and the lizard named Bill tries to get her out but she sneezes and he flies away. poor Bill.

13) What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever? um. those werther things. theyre gross.

14) If you were writing out your will, who would you give your record collection to? hmmmm. josh.

15) If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be? why abortion is wrong always and why the sky should have been pink.

16) Out of your friends, who would you say you are most jealous of, artistically? those who are amazing at guitar.. you know who you are.

17) Most jealous of...intellectually? i dont know. im kinda glad im not as smart as most people

18) What do you collect? sea shells

19) What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed? my ugly face

20) What do you do when you're home sick? sleep and whine and eat popsicles/jello

21) Current favorite article of clothing? skirts =)

sausage is the grossest gross food i have ever been forced to eat.

i hate it with a passion.

School was good. i hate spanish. oh well. and i wanna cut my hair. but i cant decide what to do with it. its hopeless. bah. and i love jack johnson <3amazing.

and now this. I stole it from Alex:

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, whats the first thing u say? "ew"
2. How much cash do you have on you? HAHA. one whole dollar. yes im serious.
3. What's a word that rhymes with test? vest! hahahha i hate vests
4. Favorite flower? Pink roses. Daisys
5. Who is the 4th person on your phone list? my aunt Mary Lou
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? something annoying. it sounds like a techno party
7. What shirt are you wearing? little black tshirt
8. Do you "label" yourself? ..no?
9. Name the brand of shoes you are wearing? no shoes. just socks
10. Bright or Dark Room? bright!
11. What do you think about the person who did this before you? he is my lover.
12. Ever "spilled the beans"? possibly.. my grandpa used to have this board game about spilling the beans that i played at his house when i was little. so if you count that ive spilled the beans alot.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? trying unsucessfully to get some sleep
14. What did your last text message you recieved on your cell say? something sweet.
15. Do you ever click on "Popups" or Banners? no. i hate them with the fire of a thousand suns.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? "dude" "wow" or "you hate me..*smack*"
17. Who told you they loved you last? my little bro
18. Last furry thing you touched? a ham
19. How many hours a week do you work? none =( 
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? i have half a roll of pics on an underwater camera. but im waiting til they're all used up.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? im pretty sure i liked 5.. and 12
22. Your worst enemy? bad news, bad weather, being alone, lack of excitement/activity.
23. What is your current desk top picture? a sunset over the ocean with a palm tree or somethin
24. If you had to choose between a million bucks or a night with Paris Hilton/Johnny Depp which would you pick? Johnny is an amazing actor and i would love to meet him sometime but id take the million bucks. much better ways to help the people i care about.
25. How tall are you? 5'6-7"
26. Do you own a gun? no.
27. Rehab? what?
28. What's your favorite Christmas song? ummm idk alot. jingle bell rock, white christmas
29. What is your favorite smell? clean laundry. the smell after it rains outside. nice boy smell.
30. What do u prefer to drink in the morning? juice. sometimes tea.. coffee if its really early in the morning lol
31. Have you ever done ecstasy? No
32. Have you been shot? no. i kinda wish i had been though. thatd be fun to tell people.
33. Have you ever been hospitalized? yeah they cut my neck open one time.
34. Do you like painkillers? sure if im hurting.
35. Whats your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? i have no weapon or method of "luring" i only like to be myself. i dont believe in playing games or anything like that.
36. Do you own a knife? i did but i think it got lost. it was sucky anyways.
37. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? i cant say i know what it feels like.
38. Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink. - - Apple juice, Water, Sunny delight, sprite, dr pepper
39. Whats in ur cd player? jack johnson, fall out boy, jack's mannequin
40. What's Under Your Bed? Trash, candy, boxes of various cards/pictures/papers, magazines, notebooks, posters that wont pit on the wall, possibly some stuffed animals, and my friend will. =)
41. What Time Did You Wake Up Today? At 7 in the AM unfortunately..
42. Current Worry? Stuff
43. Current Hate? The feeling of being trapped.
45. Least Favorite Place? Here
46. If You Could Play An Instrument What Would it Be? Guitar or Piano
47. One person From Your Past You Wish You Could Date? ehhh.. not gonna say.
48. Where Would You Like To Go? Hawaii, Paris, Italy, Ireland, Jamacia, New zealand, mexico, canada, Chile, Brazil, Bahamas, London, Austrailia.. okay basicly everywhere.
49. Where Do you want to live? close to people. preferably in the city someplace.
50. Color Of Most Clothes You Own? idk. prolly pink or blue.
51. Number of pillows you sleep with? 6 haha
52. What do you wear when you go to sleep? Pajamas.. sometimes just panties and a tshirt
53. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years? hopefully i will be working and/or married.
54. First piercing/tattoo? i have my ears pierced. 7 holes.
55. Last person you yelled at? i dont yell. last person i had a 'heated discussion' with.. my sister.
56. Latest crush? This boy who is neat
57. Last thing you ate? Tato chips.
58. If you could be a pirate, would you? Yes. so i could plunder and wear a cool hat. not to mention boats. i like boats.
59. What songs do you sing in the shower? If i do its usually whatever is stuck in my head at that time.
60. What's in your pockets right now? No pants=no pockets.
61. Last thing that made you laugh? this boy from school. i forget what he said now.. but it was funny.
62. Any pets now? no. nothing of 'mine'
63. Have you ever won any awards? yeah a couple.
64. If you could pick one person to make out with who would it be? ..
65. Did you lie about all the previous answers? No.. but i wish i had thought to do that.

<3<3<3

Jenni got a job.

<3

Ps: Research paper = hatehatehate. Alex = lovelovelove

:):)

Hi.

I cut my hair. maybe ill put pictures up later.

and

Im eating yogurt. mmmm.

and

That is all.

<3<3<3

Ps: My hair looks exactly the same as before. Oh well.

HAPPY SATURDAY EVERYONEEE!! <3<3

So my dads bussiness workplace thing had a company picnic and i went today and it was sooo fun! it was at this resort place and i went swimming and me and my sister went on the lake in a paddle boat and then we have ice cream!! heck. yes. so pretty much it was amazing awesome fun.

I <3 emilio!! she is my lover!!

and

this is for alex..

TATTOOOOO!!

Upclose..

 its not real, duh. but its hot right?

okayokay i love you guys. im gonna go watch a movie. <3<3<3

hahahaha

so.. jenni walks into the kitchen. little brother is eating at the table
clark: "hey jen, do you wanna get me a drink?"
me: *sigh* "no i dont want to, but i will."
clark: "why? do you feel obliged?"

the word obliged makes me laugh anyway.. but when you add the fact that it came out of a little kids mouth. ahh it was hilarious.

so

church was good. i went to kmart and bought a new skirt.

annnd now i have to go do chem homework. boo. =(

i love you all. <3<3<3

so basicly.. i was supposed to go today for paperwork from 3-6 and do orentation and all that. so i get there.. wait for like 15 minutes. and then manager asks me to come back tomorrow.

i was so mad. dfkyfdkhfd. biggest waste of 2 hours ever. i mean. its not like i have a life, cause i dont. but thats 2 hours i could have been doing my spanish homework. cause i have a whole freakin weeks worth. ugh. it was so gay. so now i have to go back tomorrow after school. and its a good thing i dont have lit class tomorrow, cause i havent done anything. ha.

<3<3

wheeee I like school without having lit class. much more interesting.

and

I am so tired.

work orientation was boring. blah.

I hate people who smoke. it makes me want to gag.

I rocked the effing spanish quiz, niggas.

my legs hurt =( boo.

and

I love Alex.

kbye

<3<3

im in love with love.

<3

i got hit by an acorn today.

chem class was interesting. or something.

work.. pointless.

=)

and now..

new skirt!

;)

i cut myself shaving this morning for the 4th time in the history of ever.

i guess thats what i get for shaving my legs at 5 45 in the morning.

<3

ps: we are sooo going to six flags tomorrow. heck. yes.

Hey look.. its a thing.

01. Last Cigarette: Never
02. Last Kiss: ? my mom kissed me todayyy =)
03. Last Cry: its been a couple weeks
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: Jane Eyre
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: Corpse Bride
06. Last Book Read: ummm my chem book. boo.
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: iforget.

08. Last Beverage Drank: cran-apple juice yummie stuff
09. Last Food Consumed: salad.
11. Last TV Show Watched: i was watching shrek on tv. if that counts. if not.. then um i think it was a friends rerun haha
12. Last Time Showered: this morning before the sun came out.
13. Last Shoes Worn: little tan heels. hot.
14. Last CD played: Jack johnson! right now =)
15. Last Soda Drank: Sprite
16. Last Thing Written: chem HW ha
17. Last Words Spoken: "thanks!" to my sister.. she gave me some chocolate =) cause w're friends
18. Last Annoyance: my dad haha
19. Last Time Scolded Someone: today. my brother was acting like a maniac
20. Last Web Site Visited: uhm.. this one?
21. Last bed you slept in: mineminemine

B O D Y:

01. Piercings: i only have holes in my ears. 7 of them.
02. Tattoos: nah
03. Height:  5'6-7 or somethin
04. Shoe size: 8.5
05. Hair color: umm.. i guess youd call it light brown.
06. Siblings: i have those. 5.

L A S T . . .

01. Movie you rented: fever pitch
02. Movie you bought: i dont really buy movies. people buy them for me.
03. Song you listened to: Constellations - Jack Johnson
04. Song that was stuck in your head: made for each other - jack's mannequin
05. CD you bought: erm.. i think Jacks Mannequin again lol
07. Person you've called: My moM!
08. Person that's called you: The Hulk! aka liz.. i love herrr!
10. Person you were thinking of: this boy.
11. Friend you made: Eppi!

D O...

01. You have a crush on someone: yes
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: yes
03. You think about suicide: no
04. You believe in online dating: eh. not really
05. Others find you attractive: i dont know..?
06. You want more Piercings: yeah
07. You drink: sometimes
08. You do drugs: no
09. You smoke: no
10. You like cleaning: eww no
11. You like roller coasters: no. i only LOVE THEM!
12. You write in cursive or print: i kinda combine them together lol

F O R *O R *A G A I N S T...

01. Long distance relationships: it depends on the people. i defintely think its really a really challenging thing and and some people are really not built for it.
02. Teenage smoking: against smoking at all.
03. Doing drugs: not for me.
04. Driving drunk: against
05. Soap operas: i couldnt care less.

E V E R...

01. Ever cried over a male? uh yeah
02. Ever lied to someone: duh. i will lie to you right now if you want.
03. Ever been in a fistfight: no. i hit people but they dont hit me back.
04. Ever been arrested: noooo

W H A T...

01. Shampoo do you use: whatever i find in the shower.. i used to have dove but nowww i have herbal essances shampoo and some offbrand citrus conditioner.

02. Shoes do you wear: Psh, we southerners dont wear shoes!
03. Are you scared of: losing people i love, being judged, being alone.

N U M B E R . . .

01. Of times you have been in love? i dont know..
03. Of hearts you have broken? hopefully none. i dont ever wanna be a heartbreaker
04. Of drugs taken illegally? drugs are for thugs. what.
05. Of people you consider your enemies? enemies? hopefully i dont have any. i generally like most people.
06. Of scars on your body? alottt
07. Of things in your past that you regret? not too much.. but some.

The end!! lovelovelove<3

ugh.

school should just die.

..

cause i am about to.

<3

im dead on my feet today.

and

spanish sucks.

and

i have to work tomorrow. boo.

..

i feel weird.

and

today at school this guy was talking about about someplace he went this weekend and i was just like "OMG I know where that is!! lets hug!!" ha. it was amazing. i know where something is. i rock.

the end

<3<3<3<3<3

i have a cut on my tounge.. and i have no idea what to do about it.

hmm

its raaaaaainnninggggg!!

ha.

ps: i miss the mosaic dragons.

<3

pps: i DO NOT like bubbles. and i hate being cold. boo winter.

lately it seems like my life is all.. fsdjhglhfdsghfdsmhfdlkj

i dont feel together.

also

i have the weirdest thought patterns ever.

like today i saw a liscence plate that said lostiam. so i starting thing about emma and how we always get lost but then i thought about Will and how he is Will-i-am. then i thought about stephen cause his middle name is william, and then i thought about alan and that fish he used to clip to his pants and how he saved my life in that corn maze one time. and then i thought "i have the weirdest thought patterns ever"

which is obviously the case.

what is wrong with my mind?

gah.

kbye

<3<3<3<3<3

i cant breathe..

someone please fix me.

=(

Did you ever see that "intuition" razor commercial.. where theyre talking about how shaving is soo incredibly complicated and it shows the lady who sprays herself in the face with the shaving cream? and then you laughed and were like 'that would sooo never happen'

..

it happens.

ha

<33

ps: my mom called me an exhibitionist today. cause i dont close the curtains when im getting changed. i laughed. she looked disapproving. twas funny.

I wish i wasnt sick

i wish i wasnt here

i wish my spanish homework would do itself.

i wish i was smarter.

i wish i had some money.

i wish i could go to the park.

i wish i would just win the lottery.

i wish someone would just give me a hug.

i feel like taking pictures.

or

taking a bath.

..i dont know.

i have nothing more to say

<3bye

Pretty much ive decided that i do not like people who are quick to point out faults in others. its really very unbecoming. what is the reason people do this? could it be the popular case of putting others down to make ourselves feel important? this answer doesnt really make sense to me. now i dont know about you, but i cant honestly say i get my jollies by making other people feel bad. anytime i put down or hurt another person, intentionally or not, i feel awful about it. it probably hurts me more than them.

what then is the reason for this? im not saying people should not be honest. but there is a fine line between constructive criticism and unnecessary meaness. the key, i guess, is knowing where to draw the line. to say to your friend, "i really think you should have more respect for yourself." is definately a nicer comment then "i wish youd stop whoring around." and for that matter, this person, be it your friend, your cousin, your coworker, whoever, they may not want to hear your oppinon. instead of feel bad they might get angry. maybe theyre angry because youre right. but MAYBE their angry because what you said is unkind and most definately unnecessary. maybe the truth is that they are a better person than you, and you really have no right to say anything to them concerning their actions or their faults. but most people who are better than you wont tell you this. they know where to draw the line.

but sometimes people really mean well, their thinking may be that you are perhaps unaware of the thing they so kindly point out. how can you be mad then? they think theyre just helping you. which sometimes is true. but alot of times.. it doesnt help. when this happens all i want to do is say "why dont you look at yourself first? then maybe we can talk." its true that is harder for us as humans to see our own faults than to see someone elses. but who are we to judge what is a character flaw and what is a gift? God has reasons for making each person the way they are. that doesnt mean we cant improve ourselves, we are imperfect beings and there is always room for improvement. but to try and change another person for whatever reasons we may have is not our place. even if we think they may need it.

to reserve your judgement, and in turn look at yourself first is an act of rightousness. leave God to be the judge of people, He is the one who is all knowing. He is the one who is all seeing. i think the world today would be much better off if people not only believed in this, but lived it. instead of judgement and criticism, turn to love and acceptance.

Matthew 7: 1-5

I want it to be christmas! or valentines day..

SOMEONE SEND ME A CARD!!

please?

I wish i had a window box.. full of paper flowers and pinwheels.

<333

why dont you just cut me

im dying to b l e e d.

(i never wanted you to see this side of me.)

well well well..

my new hoodie is hottttt.

i wish someone would buy me some subway. i miss it. we have no food.

my chem teacher is not opposed to us making smores in class. i found this very exciting news. you should also know that i pretty much owned the chem test. yes.

and

i love when my phone goes off in class. especially if its joshiepoo.

and

i love ice cream and sleeping bags.

and

i love alex

and

i am now going to devote the rest of my life to lit homework/research paper. ugh.

loooovvveee! <3<3<3

kbye =)

I MADE CHERRY PIE!!

is it sooooo good!

ps: today is my unbirthday. everyone should get me a present.

<3

ummm

so

i woke up

chem chem chem

showered

work work work

i was sposed to get done at 10:30.. i didnt leave til 12. yep. i suck.

this is a boring post.. cause i have nothing interesting to say.

its been raining for like 8458 hours. its fun. it rained through my window and into my room.. it was funny. the window is still open. rain is still getting in. =)

the endthe endthe end!! <33

kisskiss

saturdays rock your face off. you know they do.

tonight was interesting one at work. i only had two tables all night. they hate me. ha. anywayys.. so i went on break at about 7 30( got a free turkey club! yayy!), and like ten minutes later.. light so out. it was funnny. i mean it was funny to me cause i had no tables or customers to complain at me. so everyone did their best to fix what food we could. so i stood in the back eating candy with george. talkin with him and steven. it was cool.

 then the floods went out (total darkness) sooo everybody went home and we cleaned in the dark for an hour. george and i had a napkin party hehe. then i finally got to go homee. right as i left the lights kicked back on (9 30ish). i was scared to drive home cause alot of roads were flooded. like one big puddle haha. but i made it. i am an awesome driver. thats a lie. but still i made ittt =)

and then

my sister spilled hot wax on me.

then

i had a bagel.

the end. :) :)

kbye

LOVE!

i spent 45 dollars at target. (new sweater!)

church was good.

going to sams tonight. hurrah for sleepovers!

and

i dont know. confusion.

<3

ahhhhhhhh

so much fun. =)

school was fun.

ryan bought me candy. and then i repaid him in cookies. and me and eppi are going on an ice cream excurrsion next week. =) my new sweater is just so comfy and fuzzy. i want it to rain.. or just get sunny. i dont like cloudy with no rain.

i love alex

<3

ps: chemistry is going to kill me.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=8581984&Mytoken=AAD7A90C-844D-1085-35FBB9F741AF1EEE12328530

i find this music absolutely hilarious.

painnnn.

the dentist killed me.

i never had any fillings before. why didnt anyone tell me there was drills and needles involved?

my whole face hurts. =(

AND

AND

ANDDDD

they told me to come back next week to fill ANOTHER one. THEY HATE ME! =(

Homework is gonna make my head explode.

<3

I soooo just woke up. im such a bum. <3

klove.

the good news is..

my mouth doesnt hurt anymore!

but the bad news is

my legs hurt soooo incredibly bad!

*dies*

<3

You keep disappointing me.

and its getting hard to feel sorry for you.

in fact

its getting hard to even know you.

..

DASHBOARD TODAY!!

<3hottt

See what Care Bear you are.

can i just say..

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!

ahhhhhhhhh..

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

yay school.

me and eppi went on a ben and jerrys run. (cookie dough and phish food.. mmmmmmm!)

and

ryan is a happy emo.

and i had a revelation.. or maybe a realization.. i dont really have to work that hard at all to make good grades. and bsing my way through papers and assignments is generally unnoticed and accepted. how nice huh?

im still just.. amazed.

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

The Set:

• Am i missing
• The sharp hint of new tears
• Remember to breathe
• So impossible
• A plain morning
• Ghost of a good thing
• Again i go unnoticed
• For you to notice
• As lovers go
• Saints and sailors
• The good fight
• Screaming infedelities
• New song -which i really liked btw
• The brillant dance
• Carry this picture
• The places you have come to fear the most
• The swiss army romance
• Vindicated
• The best deceptions
• Hands down

Thats all i can remember. after replaying the show in my head 43767 times. im sure eric will inform if i missed any. <3

I dont wanna go to work.

I dont wanna read a whole chapter of my chemistry book.

I dont wanna change out of my pajamas.

I dont wanna be busy anymore

I wanna take a bubble bath.. except i dont have time. so i have to just take a quick shower.

I wanna call people.. except i dont have time. damn you, chemistry.

I wanna go see dashboard again. =)

I wanna eat my ice cream.. but i feel too fat.

ghujfvuyfjkyfs45uukyhjvg

boo.

<3

ps: back hurts. and they are drilling my face again tomorrow. =(

I bought shampoo at walmart! and conditioner! and panties! (gasp)

so today was interesting. woke up, homeworked.. i decided to go to wally world before work today. just cause i was sick of my house really. lol and i called alex to keep me company while i shopped. talked to him the whole time there and all the way to subway =) then i had some lunch (which killed my mouth)

Went to work. it was sooo slow. boo. Wes gave me three dollars lol. and in return i gave him a hug. i think i might start charging 3 dollars per hug now. it'd be a good bussiness lol except nobody would probably buy them. oh well

so. i get off work suprisingly early. 9:45. check my voicemail and who would have called but George. so i gave him a call back and convinced me to meet up with him at wawa over by ESU. it took me forever to get there. cause i cant get around very well lol. but we met up and were all 'hmmm what to do at 10 15ish at night' (everything around here shuts down pretty early. so boo) so we just went to walmart (yes, again) so we wandered around and found the halloween isle and george was like 'dude we should so get a pumkin' so we did.

but.. here is the best part.. we found a perfect pumkin. but we saw something wierd in the next isle.. and it was.. white pumpkins! yes, white. we were so amazed lol we had to buy one. bought both the pumpkins, and a knife thingy. and went back to his dorm to carve em. george let me carve the white one. and i was excited cause it was my first time getting to do the actual carving. cause my mom never trusted me with the knife thingy. anywaysss mine turned out look pretty kickass. and george's was only only halfway done when i left.. he was trying to make it look like johnny depp. but i think its gonna turn out nice. i wanted to take a picture of mine. all awesome and white. but i didnt have a camera. *sigh* maybe another day though.

and now im home! yay!

the end

<3<3<3 goodnight lovers

show was.. fun. yes fun.

work was.. gay, yes gay.

jenni was.. tired. yes tired

now she is.. hungry. yes hungry. (and tired)

and i just feel so lost.

<3

boys keep talking to me.

work

school

shows

restraunts

stores

wherever.

it sometimes bothers me. and it always astounds me.

I just want to know why i cant do anything anymore.

cant draw

cant write

cant talk

cant think

what can i do? feels alot like nothing.

<3

im eating grapes.

but its leaving a weird feeling in my mouth.

huh..

Once there was a girl
But she was just a dream
You saw her smile, you felt her touch
Your eyes began to gleam.
She left behind a scent you cant forget,
Like sweet perfume and cigarettes
But she left with the summer
Youre living with her echo.
You lost her somehow
You say "maybe she lost herself"
She never said she was going
You say "maybe she never knew"

But burried in her mind
She always knew.
It was a feeling inside
And its indescribable, something untangible
It was an omission, more than a lie.

And "its all her fault" you say with a sigh
She never told you about
Her history of lies
Her panic attacks
Her disapearing acts
This was all news to you..
Well,
News flash.

And its burning in your lungs
You say
Thats whats watering your eyes.
But youre feeling feeling greatful now
You wipe your face
You say to yourself "goodbyes are the sweetest embrace"
She never gave you that last touch
It was too hard,
She wasnt brave enough.
A note on the table
Is all you would find
Two delicately drawn hearts
Desperately intwined.
You take it now,
Trace the lines with your eyes.

She never meant to hurt you,
You should know by now,
She wanted to be happy
She just didnt know how.

I am avoiding the subject.

whatever the fuck that means.

..

i have nothing to say.

Blinkboy87: draw me a pic on my myspace
Blinkboy87: plz
Jenni5488: maybe
Blinkboy87: :-(
Jenni5488: <3
Blinkboy87: i made you an AWESOME picture
Blinkboy87: with monkeys
Blinkboy87: and me
Blinkboy87: and you
Blinkboy87: and harpoon guns
Jenni5488: i already made you one too though
Blinkboy87: yeah
Blinkboy87: but
Blinkboy87: i want another jenni original
Jenni5488: well im just saying if i make you another one you have to make me another one
Blinkboy87: okay
Jenni5488: i have ice cream
Blinkboy87: i cant eat ice cream
Jenni5488: =(
Jenni5488: can you eat peanut butter?
Blinkboy87: mmmhmm
Jenni5488: thats basicly ice cream
Jenni5488: and its yummie
Blinkboy87: lol
Blinkboy87: sept
Blinkboy87: you need something to go with it
Blinkboy87: cause it cloogs ya up
Jenni5488: sometimes
Jenni5488: its good with apples, or jelly, or bananas, or monkies
Blinkboy87: what isnt good with monkies?
Jenni5488: i think everything is
Jenni5488: monkies could make dirt taste amazing
Blinkboy87: dirt already tastes amazing
Jenni5488: hahahaha
Jenni5488: really
Blinkboy87: im making you a picture
Jenni5488: yayyy
Blinkboy87: YES done
Jenni5488: sweeeet
Blinkboy87: probly the best picture ive ever drawn
Jenni5488: omfg
Jenni5488: best hottest picture i have ever made
Jenni5488: GO LOOK AT IT
Jenni5488: NOW!
Blinkboy87: omg
Blinkboy87: i love it
Blinkboy87: like
Blinkboy87: so much
Blinkboy87: the
Blinkboy87: war paint
Blinkboy87: the monkey smores
Blinkboy87: the vin diesel
Jenni5488: lmao
Jenni5488: its so fucking hot isnt it?
Blinkboy87: yesssssssssss
Blinkboy87: did u see the one i did for u?
Jenni5488: OMG
Jenni5488: i just saw it
Jenni5488: hawwwwt
Blinkboy87: hhe
Jenni5488: i want to like
Jenni5488: frame them
Blinkboy87: haha
Blinkboy87: if only

HOW could he even say that to me? fhdskhgdsksjfhsgsdkdf/. damnit. even if he thinks its true, it isnt. and. now he is talking about ME. look at your fucking self. UGH

Im so sick of "im sorry"s. its all i hear anymore.

why cant people just be honest. tell me what you really feel. what you really think.

*sigh*

and yes, i know i know. talk about being hypocrytical. but its my blog so i will be a hypcrite if i damn well please.

kbye <3

im retarded.

yep.

Funny is: my little sister imitating a little duck statue.

Hottness is: my halloween costume.

Awesome is: the party at Sam's house!

Genius is: pajama day at school.

Amazing is: having food in your house.

Delicious is: candy! and juice.

Happiness is: a hammock in your bedroom.

YAY!

ew

boo

ugh

ha

My window sill is so frequently visited that it calls me by name =)

My pride and joy:

=) ITSOVERRRRRR!!

ps: sams house rocked my face off. and stuff. <3

food keeps killing me. =(

IM RICH! (in candy) =)

uhm.

sooooo tired.

i love my pajamas. just like i love candy.

school was fun stuff. you know. fun fun. and like me and eppi are hot. and we are chillin on sunday or something. bwahahaha. i thought i was going to be killed in spanish but actually i was okay. so good. =)

annnnnnnndd

i love everyone

<33

and also, it turns out i cant draw anymore. which sucks cause now i have nothing to do for the rest of my life. hmmm.

schoolwork makes my head want to explode.

<3

mark this on your calendar

as the day

everything

f a l l s

apart

<3

I miss stuff.

=(

boo.

if you have a drink with ice in it and you put it in the fridge, the ice will not, i repeat, WILL NOT melt.

i am brilliant. =)

Everything is going good..

and then, suddenly.. it hits you

an SUV.

or maybe.. you hit it. its hard to tell.

either way, you cry. and now my hands wont stop shaking.

well.

today was boring. work was busy. funny. Lancey called Steven the antichrist. and really its probably true.. ahhhh i laughed my ass off. and i think george was stoned behind the grill. or something. that was also funny.

dave matthews band rocks your face off. you know its true.

and

i wish someone could come cook me dinner. sooo tired. sooo hungry. sooo hurting. damn my legs and their lack of.. muscles? or whatever it is that makes them hate me.

trying to find something to do tomorrow. im sick of doing nothing. hopefullllyyy something will happen.

<333333

ps: people deserving of love:

josh
josh
alex
willice
emma
liz
tiffany
YOU! yes, you. =)

dum dee dum dummm..

sooo bored.

call me so we can hang out. k? kgood.

hmmmmmmmm..

<3

1) Do you snore? nope

2) Are you a lover or a fighter? lover. i dont hate people. i dont fight either, but sometimes i argue.

3) What's your worst fear? idk. i try not to fear things if i can help it.

4) As a kid, were you a Lego Maniac? i still am biatch!

5) What do you think of "REALITY" TV? pffft its all scripted anyway.

6) Do you chew your straws? sometimes

7) Were you a cute baby? yes.. i was cute.. i dont know what happened.

8) Is the single life for you? perhaps it is. i may reconsider though.

9) What color is your keyboard? white

10) Do you sing in the shower? not usually.

11) Have you ever bungee jumped? i will! but i havent yet

12) Any secret talents? its possible. i might have talents that i dont even know about haha

13) What's your ideal vacation spot? everywhere. italy, ireland, austrailia, jamacia, paris, england, mexico, hawaii, greece, alright you get it basicly everywhere.

14) Is Jay Leno funny? sometimes yes.

15) Can you swim? yes. tina cant though. haha. loser. :p

16) Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko"? nope. i want to though, hes hot.

17) Do you care about the ozone? care about it? sure. in fact, i love it. it makes me giddy with joy inside.

18) How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? i dont know! i ate one today! damn i should have counted!

19) Can you sing the alphabet backwards? not a chance.

20) Have you ever been on an airplane? heck yes! its amazing.

21) Are you an only child? haha not even close

*sigh*

Im done measuring my life in days.

years, hours, weeks, minutes.

Life is nothing but a series of moments.

We should measure life in moments.

moments that make your heart stop.

moments that make an imprint on your life.

moments you live to remember. i wouldnt give up memories of moments like that. not for anything.

<3

i kinda hate this.

damnit.

i wish my brain would just shut up.

so.. school was good. Joey is offically the coolest kid ever for burning me BOTH Emery cds! three cheers for joey!

then

went home.

boring.

went to the mall. shopped.

left after i realized how much money i had spent.

went to pizza hut to see if Eric was there.

he wasnt.

ho hum.

came home.

watched tv and ate candy.

the end.

pretty much.

<3

ps: i hate arrogance.

1. Go into your archives.

 2. Find your 23rd post.

3. Post the fifth sentence (or closest to it).

4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.

5. Tag five other people to do the same thing.

 5th sentence - well this was the first and only sentence: "YES I LIKE TO OAT, OAT, OAT OPPLES AND BONONOS!!"

Anddd now I will taggg..

Ariel
Josh
Six
Josh
and
Nicole

Well i tired.

but.

i can honestly say that im happy it worked out this way.

=)

Jenni loves eric.

<3

that is all.

work sucks.

we were so busy.

i made 105 dollars mwahaha.

i saw luke and ryan and kellcey and katrina. they came to eat with like 20 other people. wes took the table though. damn him.

i smacked steven in the face. =) he loved it.

i need someone to make me dinner! again. boo.

<333333333

seriously bad day.

kbye.

(ilovealex)

=(

i hate being sick.

someone fix me.

*sigh* im going for a swim in the bathtub i think..

<3

AHA

im running on two hours of sleep.. who knows why i havent died yet.

ummm.. school. class.. aparently, half asleep at five in the morning works for me. because mrs rivera loved my lit paper. =) and spanish was ehh whatever i cheated on the test last night so who cares. then: study hall. all i remember of this was eating candy and trying to keep up while ryan and matt talked. i was so tired lol i kept being all like 'wait.. what?' or 'did you just say.. (insert random weirdness here)?' oh well. they found it funny so there we go at least i was somewhat entertaining. thennn art class was so easy i almost fell asleep.

then we went to the store. jenni spent fifty dollars on clothes. which is bad. i need to buy my big brother a christmas present but instead i buy clothes. its not my fault i never know what to get him. he doesnt want anything. its so annoying.

k now the phone rang. yayy. i love alex. kbye. <3333

ps: OMG CHRISTMAS IS COMING AND I AM SO EFFING EXCITED!!

I cant sleeeeep. boo. and i have to get up for chem class tomorrow. double boo.

Today was boring.. slept and worked.

But Eric came to see me! so that was the highlight of my night! :) :) and he may come see me tomorrow too! yay!! i wanna go shopping tomorrow. but idk if ill have time. im pretty sure i have overdue library books too.. i just thought about that. whoops.

oh

and

AND

Joe B is offically UNfired! i really have no idea how he pulled that off but oh well. he somehow charmed deb. so applause for joe please. yessss.

did you know i have new shoes? of course you didnt, nobody knew. cause i ahvent worn them yet.

and umm

I dont wanna work tomorrow. or go to class. rawr.

And ummm. George quit. again. basicly i dont care. cause i got tired of him standing behind the grill all stoned and stupid.

im just typing to keep myself entertained at this point.

I need to make ryan a scarf for christmas. cuz i said i would. cuz we are homies.

and my hair is so annoying that i just want to cut it off.

and yeah.

Alex = <3

kbye.

humph

chem class was so gay.

work was even more gay. but hey, eric came to see me :D which was awesome

and

we might leave for ohio tomorrow. maybe not. i havent packed or cleaned my room. not even a little. i dont care too much.

and i need someone to make me dinner please. =(

<3

omg i hate winter.

so freaking cold. im going to die.

and

we are leaving tomorrow at the crack of dawn. and i havent even finished packing/cleaning.

oooohhh well.

yesterday i played the most rousing game of peekaboo ever.

<3

well yeah

we are in ohio. trip was long boring. but oooh well.

today is my moms birthday! yay mom! i love her!

and

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgOMG!

guess who is coming HOME for christmas?

JENNI IS!

(home as in nashville) go me! ghgfkjhdklhfdk excitement!!

kbyelove<3

i totally forgot to return my library books before i left. i will seriously owe those bitches like thirty bucks when im finally back. damnit.

man..

<3 Jennaroo

i like jumping in leaf piles.

=)

SNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWWWWWWWWWW!!

WHOO!

..

and

whats up with people calling me at 6 in the morning from numbers i dont recognize?

weird.

and whats up with people i love not calling me at all? everyone hates me =(

im going to make pieeeeees today. it'll be amazing. yes.

alright bye.

<333333333333

I am officially a fat kid

i seriously think its possible that i ate enough for 4 people today.

hahaha

but really.

<3

Went to a football game today. so that was fun. it was insanely cold though. i almost died.

um

i have a new hat.

tomorrow is my sister's one year anniversary. =)

im sick of snow. it gets everything all dirty and cold. boo.

my big brother is freaking awesome.

uh yeah

we are going to a bar thing. my dad is gonna play some muuusic hah

kbye <3

i love alex.

my cousin just gave me a puppy!

hes so cute! expect pictures soon!

<3lovelove!

ps: i looooove alex!

HESMINEEEEE!!

Aint he a doll?

<3

can i just say..

that work was gay. and i have to go back tomorrow at 8am. i traded shifts with robin so that i can go to eppi's party tomorrow night. so its good, but still.. i hate it.

and i have so much schoolwork to do, but i seriously cannot make my brain focus. so thats sad.. and annoying.

and yeah. 5 hours til im awake again. goodnight lovers.

<3

i got up today at the crack of 6:30 *sigh* got ready and drove to work while eating my half a bagel. realized halfway there that i left Eppi's birthday present AT HOME! had 4 cups of coffee with ice cream. workedworkedworked. we were soooo busy.. we got a rush at 10 that just didnt stop. jenni made 150 dollars yo.

sooo got off work (late) called Eppi, got directions to her house, got lost, called her again lol and finally got there. party was funnnnn! its always nice to know people at these things. evie, kathleen, maria, matt, ryan, and trina were all there. so yay. we hung out. trina taught jack to do dog tricks lol. (and jack is an insane 7 year old boy) lol omg it was so funny jack was going psycho and Maria goes "Jack, hold still so i can take your picture" and he just looked at her and then he goes "I wish you were dead" omg it was awful but we all cracked up.

so then i gave ryan and trina a ride back to my house and their mom picked them up here. and now im holding my puppy and hes asleep in my lap. so cuteeee! hehe

im so incredibly tired that i cant even think anymore. and work for 8 freaking hours.. it killed me. everything hurrrrts =( i need someone to make me hot chocolate.

and.. um, i dont know.

k goodnight <3

ps: You hate me

homework sucks

headaches suck

cold weather sucks

my puppy is cute

my friends are the best

i hate tacos

boo for gross dinners

i want new shoes

i love alex

kbye<3

Emotions screw everything ^up

Love

Jealously

Hate

Anger

Greed

Pity

Lonliness

Why cant i ever be just friends? Why cant i ever just let things go? and WHY did i let my mom talk me out of staying in the bathtub til spring *sigh* it was a brilliant idea..

<3

no work tonight after all. they called and said they didnt need me yay. so then i was gonna go shopping with kel. cept my dads car broke. so boo.

and im so hungry and we have no food cause the fridge is broken =(

ugh

lately everything feels so messed up. like.. i dont even know. emotions keep getting in the way. why are people never satisfied? its like we are designed to want more or something. i dont want more. not from you. not from anyone. not now. and really.. what the hell is wrong with me? i dont even know. but its bad. i hate when people say stuff like that. i dont want to hear it. isnt that obvious? it creates awkwardness and problems. no im not mad.. i understand why he did it. ive done it myself. i just dont want it to turn into some kind of.. big thing. because its not. right? right. yeah and maybe im scared. but so what? isnt that my problem? i am aware of it. i know i have to work on it. but i know somewhere in me there is strength. and if and when its worth it. ill be able to prove that.

dont worry if none of that made sense. but congrats if you followed.

my fat is really starting to annoy me. i want to just scream at it until it goes away. but it doesnt work that way. i might just swear off food for a while or something. im so sick of being a fattie. and i need to go christmas shopping! im going crazy. i have no clue what to get emily. when does that ever happen? i mean yeah i have ideas.. but nothing spectacular. nothing like usual where i just know that she will love it. its weirdd. and my parents are impossible to shop for. especially my dad. damn him and his practicality.

ive been trying to finish my reading, but kelsey wont turn off the tv, cause shes a loser. and yeaaah i want to find a youth group. but i just have no time. so im going to have to make it. first thing is first though, finding one. i may ask ryan, assuming things go back to normal. and they better.

and the ACT is saturday. im nervousss. wish me luck and blessings and brilliance!

AND THEN! im soooo going shopping with sam on sunday! heck. yes. sam is amazing. haha my lesbian lover. <3 i havent seen her in too long.

this is long. 10 points if you read it all. +7 if you reply ;)

lovelovelove <3333333

ps: still effing freeeeeezingggg!

We were strangers when we met,

  And we were strangers when you left

    Into your shadow world of painted girls and marionettes.

I used to pride myself on living life without any regrets,

                              But now thats

                                                 Gone

                                                       Gone

                                                             Gone.

sooo. no work after all.

damn you snow, damn you.

so uh

ACT was lame. i dont know how i did. the questions are never hard for me. its just the timing thing. i get so nervous about running out of time that it makes me go even slower. which isnt good.. but ohhh well.

So then my daddy picked me up and we went to Olive Garden for lunch. mmm it was sooo good! and then we did a little christmas shopping. im like nearly out of money and probably only halfway done. sad sad. but yeah oh well. im so excited to be going hommmeeee yo! i think we are leaving the 21st. idk when we'll be back. sometime. i dont care.

if you love me and we are friends then you will tell me what you want for christmas. please.

mmmkay bye! <3333333

I have absolutely no right to be jealous.

so please just smack me okay?

thankyouveryveryverymuch.</3

freaking sickness cant keep me from going shopping! especially when its with Sam and Haley! aha we had so much fun. i have an elf hat and it has a jingle bell on it. its flippin sweet. annnd yeah im down to my last 10 dollars haha which sucks since i still have like 5 more people to buy stuff for. boo.

annnd my puppy is snoring haha

i only get to be home for 4 days. and im pretty mad about it. but ohhh well. its better than nothing.

i need to call JP and liz and umm someone else i cant think of right now. but my throat hurtsss. damnit.

and yeah. about last night.. im over it. at least for now anyways.. *sigh*

i love everyone! merry christmas!! <333 kbye

doing school all day cannot be good for the head. damn me for being a procrastinating slacker!

puppy has an ear infection =( poor thing. one ear is all droopy lol.

and there is an argument going on in my head. its funny that im so agrumenitive that i cant even agree with myself. yeah.. funny..

kidontknow

<3

sicksicksicksick.

i feel like shit.

yet i am still going to work. cause i am just that poor.

boo.

and..yeah.

lets see yesterday was good i guess.. went to school on 2 hours of sleep.. didnt fail my spanish test. ummm had fun in study hall. came home. left to go meet Eppi at the mall. we shopped for a few hours.. was fun stuff.. came home. took bubble bath. went to sleep. woke up feeling 1047 times worse than yesterday. and here i am.

must got shower for work now <3

merry christmas!

My face

feels like

someone ran over it

with a truck.

in other news.. its like 9 degrees outside. so yeah i definately dont plan on leaving the house. and uh its freakin snowing.. again. and i was too sick to go to chem class. oh darn. hah. but really its bad cause i barely understand it with going to class, and now im missing 2 classes in a row.. im going to be totally clueless.

pray for me that ill feel better by the time i go to work tomorrow night. <3 to everyone.

Happy birthday Jason.

we miss you more than words can describe.

<3wlja<3

i am sooo tired, work was lonnng. long but fun. im sad though because it was my last time to work with norman ever. and he was totally my favorite manager *sigh* but anyways. we were muy busy. and i made me some moneyyyy yo. fun things about today: mama singing to me in the dishroom, favoritism from the cooks, touching gross food and then rubbing my hands all over brads face, wes being a doll, stella and evie 'partying on' in the breakroom. and of course, making lots of money.

umm

well i had aother things to say.. but now my brain is pretty much exausted so i forget.

we're leaving on wednesday. super fun stuff. and i have too much homework damnit. so im a little mad. annnnd i cant wait to see all my lovely best friends =) kbyelovelove

ps: home alone is the best christmas movie everrrr.

some days i feel totally m e a n i n g l e s s.

i mean really. *sigh*

ive been doing nothing but homework all day. and im still not even close to being done. and uhhh. my mom and i are going shopping tomorrow i think. but yeah. im still sick. and my head hurts. and my puppy is going crazy haha. yeah so i miss someone. but i have a feeling that they dont miss me at all. so um.. that pretty much sucks then doesnt it.. but maybe i just worry too much. but thats just how it feels. so theres no way of knowing i guess..

gotta go take a bath now i think </3

i hate homework.

someone please come kill it for me. i need to be rescued.

RAWR!

i think im about to go into my garage for the first time ever.

im scurred.

toally done with lit homework, now all i have to do is finish spanish.

and my drawing for art.

and finish making that scarf for ryan

and pack for Nashville.

and make christmas cards to send before i leave town..

yep.. thats all. im never going to sleep =( pray for me please

<3 Jen

ps: turns out there's nothing in the garage except some old doors, a hay bale, and our car topper. hm. and i was really hoping for an elephant.

I survived my last day of school. need to go finish some packing and stuff.. uhhh school was good i had cookies and chips and food and reddi whip. mmm. and then. fun times hanging out with ryan man haha it worked out for him to be forced to bum a ride to my house. hahaha "eat the chicken, it'll help you!" "ahh but i dont know how to eat the freakin chicken!!"

so then i did cleaning and a bubble bath and now here i am! yay! i need um to speak with someone. i hope i get to.. sigh..

i love everyone <3

This always happens to me. and youd think that by now i might see it coming.

but no. not a chance.

so can i just say..

wtf?

merry christmas =)

i definately had a good one.

didnt get anything too grand or exciting. clothes, cds, dvds, some jewelry, giftcard, stuff like that

BUT

i did win 444 dollars on a scratch lottery ticket. so thats kinda exciting. idk whether or not to save or spend.. lol i say that like saving is even a possibility. the real question is what to spend it on. heh.

im at my grandpas house in ohio now btw.

and i cant wait for emily to come =) excitmentttttt!!

oh. and add these people onto the below list:

Brad my favorite big brother

Jason

Will

kbyelovers <33

do i have any right to be mad?? probably not.

but i am. what can you do?

<3

Go here.

<3 kthxbye <3

Haha.

sometimes i surprise myself.

Party at sams = super fun.

We. played. strip. dice.

lets just sayyyy.. Katie, Steve, and I lost.

<3kbye